Just wanted to share a couple of things

[Sarah]

hi everyone:)

So I just thought I should talk about what happened last weekend. Some changes have taken place. Like my fantasy world of 6 years has come to and end:( I was so sad and upset but I had to let it go. For the past couple of months I had been dragging it on and on and repeating some storylines. I even tried to add new storylines but it wouldn't work. But I didn't want to let go because my fantasy world is like a part of me and I feel lonely without. But then this weekend I got inspiration for a new fantasy world, well its still early days so I don't know if it will expand and carry on like my first one.

Also since finding out about MD I wanted to tell someone because for 6 years I've been looking for an answer. Finally when I found out I told my close friend and she was really supportive and okay about the whole thing. It turns about that she DDs alot too but has been keeping herself busy so she wont DD.

So on Saturday me and my sister were just talking about when we were little and I told her I remember when I had imaginary friends. Now I thought most of my family knew because I would openly talk to them and stuff. My mum told me "you're weird" and I was thinking you'll think I'm mental if I tell you that I've been living in a fantasy world for the past 6 years! Lately I've been DDing about telling my mum and sisters but only when this condition becomes a bit more well known. But I'm not sure if she will do anything about it but then again I tell myself if in the future they have a "cure" would you really want it. Right now I'm saying no because I can't see my life without my DD.

Some other problems I have too like anxiety. Sometimes it can get really bad, but my mum is like just calm down, don't worry etc but that doesn't work at all. Even when I tell her it's like its something normal to her, and I know its normal to worry but sometimes I end up worrying too much even over the smallest of things. Couple of months ago I became really depressed (kind of okay now) and I didn't tell anyone but my sister noticed it and told my mum but its like she just chooses to ignore it. I hate talking about my problems to my mum so I never tell her when something is wrong. Something else I've noticed is that if like you have a illness or problem and its physical people will take more notice and help you out. But if its mentally people most of the times don't see the problems it causes you so don't take much notice of it.

I think that's all for now next post I'll talk about something happier:)

Bye

[Tanya]

hi sarah...i just started a discussion about whether people are afraid of getting rid of MD...and looks like even ur kinda afraid...do see it if u like....now after reading your post i realized that at times even i get highly depressed at small things....maybe its another symptom of  MD....;)

[Sarah]

@ Wakethenight thanks for commenting. My new DD has been going okay but I keep going back to my old one I thought it would just go but it hasn't. I don't really mind though. Some storylines I can go over so many times just to make them right and more interesting and better than how it was before. It never is boring fixing a storyline LOL.

I hate it a lot when someone says "oh just calm down" it gets me really angry then because they just don't understand. This is really weird but this one time I was really upset and my friend wasn't there. I have no one else to talk to. So I actually talked to one of my DD characters and it felt really good. I ended up just babbling a lot but it worked and I felt much better later. I swear if my family found this site and read what I wrote on here I would be shipped off to a mental hospital.

[Wakethenight]

There is something extremely satisfying with getting a story line just right and understand how you feel about it ending and dragging it out as long as you can. The end of a storyline make me anxious, but I have this one storyline that I've been doing on and off for 14 years that I slip back into between the new 'other worlds' I create, manifest, and eventually end, so it's not so bad.  Hope your new world is as good as your last (never said that before to anyone, it's nice to be on this site with people to relate to)!

It's good you have a friend to confide in since your mother does not seem like she would be supportive. It's true that people or more sympathetic to a physical condition than a mental one--perhaps because they cannot ignore it as well.  On a similar note,  my sign language teacher said that, as for as support goes, society and the government, as a whole, were more sympathetic to blind people than deaf, because it is a lot easier to ignore the problems that  deaf people have than it is to ignore the blind---so the problem with ignoring things less obvious is wide spread.

I don't suffer from anxiety like that.  However, my BFF does and he hates hearing 'calm down.' I bet it irks you. It seems like an instinct to tell someone who is not calm to calm down which isn't helpful at all, because, clearly, if you were able to calm down, you would not be anxious in the first place. Also, people who have never experienced anxiety of a high nature  would not be able to understand exactly what it feels like and therefore think it is just a silly over reaction. Your mother may be one of those people.

My friend deals with his anxiety by talking to me if I'm present (so maybe you should talk to your friend) or writing down/thinking about what is making him anxious and trying to figure out why and then reasoning to himself. Also he thinks of the color pastel yellow. Sometimes he takes medication, but that is only if its a big panic attack. Hope that helps.

Hope you feeling better later.