Just a Little (Not) Hello!

[Geraldine Pearce]

Hey everyone!

I'm quite new here. I made an account a little while back, however this is my first post. I would just like to say thank you to everyone on this site, as well as the creators of the site itself. It's a relief to finally find somewhere which explains my life so well. Although I have not been diagnosed with MD, looking through all the symtoms I realised that I experience all of them.

I remember starting off by pretending that I was real fictional characters, and would act them out. However, more recently my 'character' has changed. For around about the last three years, I've been acting out a character who is a complete figment of my imagination, and although I am female, my character is male. Usually when I'm alone, I will act and speak like him. I even make his facial expressions. I also tend to pace up and down while listening to music when I daydream, almost as if my character is in a movie, which makes sence as my character is a famous actor aswell. I've developed a back story to my character, such as friends, family and personality traits.

It was only the last three years that I actually started to think that what I was doing was strange, and since then I wanted to know exactly what this behaviour was. After many failed attempts, I finally come across Maladaptive Daydreaming. I couldn't believe it. Everything from the behaviours to the triggers mached me perfectly, and I felt a little more justified.

I'm so happy that I've finally found a place where I can feel a little more comfortable talking about this, as it's been on my mind for a while. Of course there is a lot more detail to my MD, however I don't want to make this post too long, so I just gave a little insight.

Thanks for reading! :)

 

[ShellyBelly]

Hello Geraldine! I too engage in musical pacing. I have done this all my life. It is really nice to meet you and I hope you find what you are looking for here.

[Paracosm]

Hello, Geraldine! Welcome! :) Like you, I didn't think much of my daydreaming until more recently, when I realized how much it interfered with my life, although it has always been a source of shame and embarrassment for me. I think you can agree that it's so nice to know we're not alone in this!

I am myself in my daydreams, but I often act out the roles of other people, and will mimic their behaviors and voices. I will often change my facial expression, laugh, and cry, although I don't pace like a lot of other people here.

[greyartist]

welcome

[Geraldine Pearce]

Thank you for your comment and the welcome :)

I wrote a little about my MD to see if anyone could relate, so I'm happy that you do :D

[Rachel]

Welcome, Geraldine! You sound a lot like me (and many other MDers I've met here). I'm glad you made an account on this site. Everyone here is SOOO nice and no one judges. I also pace and listen to music and pick up some facial expressions from my daydream characters and...lots more things that you mentioned XD. Welcome!