History

[Juanita]

I am so glad to have found this site. I have felt very alone for a very long time.

I am 45 years old, and I have been making up my 'stories' since I was a young child. I had a rather dysfunctional childhood. I will spare you the details and just say that I had good reasons to retreat into fantasy worlds.

I have always been socially awkward. I have been diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder, panic disorder, and depression.

I have tried to live a normal life--I really have. I've been married and divorced. I have dated...I have a teenage son. My son does not know about my 'problem' and neither did my ex-husband. I consider myself quite functional, although I have arranged my life in a way that caters to my fantasies. I do attend my son's school functions. I have friends, and we do things together . But, at this point, I have not dated anyone in 7 years. I work at home, doing monotonous computer work on my own schedule. I can dream while I'm working.

I am not sure that I even want to give up my dreaming. Reality cannot possibly measure up to the fruits of my imagination. And, I am quite certain that I would be bereft without my stories.

But I am really glad to have found a place where I can finally discuss this. The only previous inkling I had that other people might think this way was reading the story White Nights, by Dostoevsky.

Thanks for listening.

[Peggy LaRue]

Your story is so similar to mine. I too was so excited to find this site, up until I read an article about it online I thought I was the only one who retreated into a fantasy world. No one in my family or any friends know about the special world I have created for myself, they would think I'm crazy if I told them. What a relief to know there is a place to discuss this, I'm not alone and there are people who understand.

[taffle]

Hello and welcome! I also do many things alone and on my own schedule.

[greyartist]

Welcome! you are most surely not alone.