Hi and thank you

[Donna Fuelling]

I am 58 years old and here is my story. Ever since I was a young girl around 7 or 8 I used to always pretend that people that I liked and wanted to be with were always around me and talking with me and I with them. I could change the scene to suit my emotions. If I was having a good time with friends and I  had to come home after playing and I had to go to bed, I used to keep the vibe going in my head while I listened to music and rocked. I have always envisioned people that I wanted to be with as being in my world and I would converse with them about whatever.

When I was going through a bad time I always had my fantasy world to make me feel better. I sat in bed and rocked back and forth to music and fantasied and talked out loud by myself pretending that I was with people I wanted to be with to make me feel better. I did this for 40 years!!!. About 20 years ago I became a Christian. I began to include TeleEvangelists in my fantasy's for Bible discussions. I currently have celebrity fantasies. Right now I am in the room with Eric Clapton, Paul McCartney, Mick Jagger, etc,. I love rock music and blues. I interact with these people because I have had a major crush on Eric Clapton and I pretend that  I know these people and they me.

I have never lost a grip on reality. I have friends and family and a job. I just find my fantasy world is easier to be in because I have control.

I was amazed at how many other people have this same situation. I realize that alot of what I do I do because it is an escape from realty. my realty right now is not good. I am hoping it changes.  I also read alot. I am always the leading character in the book because  she is usually  rich and beautiful and leads a wonderful life.

I don't know if this is Maladaptive Daydreaming or compulsive fantasy. I was amazed when I found this forum because I am not alone and not nuts. thank you all.

[LJ]

Being a Christian too I sometimes feel like I am not honoring my relationship with God and what He has given me in life.  I am so confused over this dding.  I don't feel very faithful while doing it.

Philippians 4:11 Not that I speak in respect of want: for I have learned, in whatsoever state I am, therewith to be content.

[greyartist]

welcome. you are not alone.