Health risk due to madd

[Xyz]

So i use my urge to urine to stimulate negAtive daydreams due to which i have an uncontrollable desire to hold my urine for long before urinating, i leak in my pants several times during a day practicing that, i think i am suffering from urinary continence now am just 18..... This madd is ruining my life... i want to get rid of it but it won't leave me...

[Leoni]

I understand this as I used to do multiple things to stimulate all the negative energy, I would tense super hard until my body shook and I would go weak, I would hold in my pee and now I scream but no sounds come up, I just get really hot and bothered and your right it does ruin your life and I wish I knew how to stop it, I’m 16 and I’ve been doing this since I was like 9 and it makes me feel like I’m crazy and it’s embarrassing but I do know that one day we will get better and we will work on these together to make sure that we do improve, my daydreaming episodes are so frequent that I loose out on sleep and it’s so tiring but we just have to keep holding on and help eachother, I’m here for you x