Half a Confession

[rainydaydreams]

Last night I confessed my daydreaming to my boyfriend in a roundabout way. Well actually it was 'as they say' like a confession dressed as a truth, wrapped up in an enigma, or something like that...

So I was offered my old job back and the money would be nice but not essential and he has commented recently on how happy I am away from that woman! We talked some more about money and what i actually do all day. I confessed I am writing a novel and he eventually coaxed the plot / theme out of me.

I said something like' I think about this story allot and I mean allot' and then I said something like 'but thats part of what writers do' I wasn't exactly lying either, many writing guides out there suggests this as valuable to the process - thought I am aware they probably don't have us MD's in mind yet I have read some writers blog and thought you are so MD. I can't remember the name of name of the book but one even suggested the possibility of been a method writer, feeling the emotion of the characters -  thats so me.

So he read me work, and you know what he didn't think it was stupid at all!

Am I lying to myself here, I day dream all the time but because I am doing something with it does it make it acceptable, I don't know as this behavior isn't really normal.

Ok maybe I'm getting this all wrong, I'm more addicted to daydreaming than even now I have allowed it to become a potentially productive part of my life, Then again 30,000 words and an ending in sight is not to be sniffed at. As well as this and knowing my spelling, punctuation and grammar let me down I have enrolled on an adult literacy course to improve.

In order to this to be productive I need to get published, while there is no shame in a write learning their craft, submitting and failing to get published there is something very wrong with a writer so screwed up about sharing their work they cant  bare the thought of anyone reading it.

Perhaps I have made the first step, if I can tell stories to myself that can drive my emotions then perhaps I can go on to tell stories to other people. So i have written a sypnosis and thought logical would someone pick up this book and want to read at in or look at the author name and think FREAK!!!

Well I have 2 books on the go in reality and this weekend I'm going out into the real world to an event just for research for the other.

[rainydaydreams]

EludeMyFantasies you have hit the nail on the head.

Lol I read somewhere that a novel takes on average 3 - 7 years to complete so I will give myself 6 - 14 then.