Further Detail Of Daydreams

[Lauren M]

When I'm not reading and trying to find answers for this problem, I usually am playing in my thoughts and it leads me to daydreaming. They usually start off very exciting. It's like turning on the tv to an action movie that is already in progress. I just step in the scenario and off we go...

In real life I'm a female, 24, African American. I'm pretty short and petite. The vast majority of my daydreams are in a male perspective and often at an age much younger than I am. Sometimes, it's female, a fat person and I've even played in the perspective of babies. I have one daydream in particular where I am male and I begin feeling emotions that would suit a male person. I feel as if I become which ever gender I am playing. Through this person, I interact with entities who are not really there, but are mentally all over the room, which sometimes isn't just a room. It's more like a world. The layout varies. Sometimes, it's a college campus scenario where my bedroom becomes outside. Sometimes my character is driving a car, so there I am in my bed (barely making the noise of a vehicle) and creating every turn and every brake. This male character I often dream up likes a particular young woman who is very pretty. The story changes from them being already married and sometimes they haven't met yet. it's a lot of storyline engineering going on and there have been a thousand revisions. it takes up a lot of my time. :-)

To me it is real. For those moments, it's my reality. Then it all comes back to me. It's like coming to the end of a roller-coaster ride. Sometimes I stay on this mental ride for hours. Never days, but I can see how some people say they've stayed for days. It's quite addictive and hypnotic.

[Lauren M]

For some reason it's easier talking here. I guess because I have more time to think, but anyway...I thought I should share this to see if other people daydream as intensely. When I first started out (as a pre teen) I could daydream silently. I would ride my bike around the neighborhood or walk around with my headphones on just THINKING the scenarios. With time, the daydreams have become so intense that I now vocalize them as well. A person on the outside would probably jump to the conclusion that it's schizophrenia, but I can distinguish fantasy from reality. I know these interactions are not real. The conversations are with no one...I'm aware of this truth, but it doesn't make it any less addicting. Sometimes I talk during daydreams so much that my voice gets tired...my throat starts hurting. Just as in real life when I've been in an argument.

[Dusty]

Very interesting, I think it's interesting to hear about the characters people come up with and how they are similar or not to their real-life identity. I tend to switch "perspectives" a lot in my daydreams, switching from one character to the other as well. Obviously my more central characters are the ones who I identify with the most emotionally and the majority of the time I DD from the perspective of my main character, though it does seem like it has made me a bit more open and loving to others having taken on the sometimes conflicting perspectives and understood the emotions of multiple characters in a situation.. off on a tangent there xD

Unlike you I don't imagine the scenery around me (usually become as tuned-out to it as possible usually through pacing/movements as a sort of self-hypnosis).

And then getting off the rollercoaster happens when my mom calls me for supper or something... :S