First time here

[Murilo]

Hi, this is my first time here. I only learned about what is maladaptive daydream yesterday and it kinda scared me because the symptoms were too familiar to me. English is not my first language, so if anything's wrong please have some patience.

I'm still processing all of this and trying to understand and accept. I would really like to know how it was for all of you accepting and understanding? I think this maybe me the start for me, to try to control my MD.

To me it usually goes like: I'm doing something and I imagine there are people watching me, and I start to do what I'm going differently, because I want these people (whoever I'm picturing in that moment) to think good things about me. And sometimes I say out loud what they are talking about me or I just say something because I want them to hear that, and that sometimes really distracts me or make me do something very slower.

When I go to a party I like to picture there's someone watching how good I'm looking, when I'm doing a test I have to always focus and don't imagine there's someone watching me and thinking "omg he's so smart" because I would get distract, and there SO many other situations I do this. Sometimes I really try to not do all of this but I just can't, I've doing it for years and I feel like I can't change and also can't explain this to anybody.