dorm life update + a lil bit of art

[Paige E.]

hi! sorry for the absence and lack of replies to comments (I'll get on it soon)-- I've moved over a thousand miles away to college and settled into my dorm.

it's weird, since I came here I haven't had more than a passing urge to daydream. maybe it's because I've been busy (moving in, six hour figure drawing workshops, dorm shopping, etc) or maybe it's because I've already accepted that my means of daydreaming is shot. everything here is super social. I have three roommates in a full apartment setup-- two girls per room, full kitchen, living room, bathroom, but no space to myself or privacy. no pacing.

I might find myself wandering into downtown soon because walking also allows me to daydream but the urge isn't really there, which strikes me as strange because this has been an integral part of my life for so long. several times a day, every day, with varying degrees of intensity, and I would panic if I didn't get the chance. for about a week or so there's just been nothing. it's almost unsettling. when I think about it, I still want to, but that visceral urge is gone.

it might also have something to do with my recent heightened dosage of lexapro, but I have my doubts.

the down side is that I find myself less interested in the characters and worlds that got me to this place. it was my daydreaming that fueled my design and animation work and I don't want to lose touch with it-- then again, maybe my work will become more varied and industry-friendly? as opposed to just the worlds I daydream about.

the bright side is that I've been very productive in other ways! really honing my traditional skills here, making some friends. two of my roommates are constantly turning our dorm into a party base but the girl I room with is low key, at least.

I wonder if the urge will ever come back full force. a big part of it was my old room-- it was round in shape and allowed me to go in half circles, and that was most conducive to my daydreaming. I have a hard time imagining myself really daydreaming anyway else, at least not in an intense/satisfying way. I'm not even restless, just kind of bored. my boyfriend is bearing the brunt of it because I'm texting him nonstop now that I have more time on my hands. I do live much closer to him now, though, so I'll be able to visit more. I hope I don't change in a fundamental way thanks to this. I'm hoping I can channel the energy I used to put into daydreaming into my art. maybe I can turn my daydreams into art-- I've certainly poured more than enough time into them to have concepts to work with.

on another note, since I never really posted my art before even though it was asked of me, here's a couple of recent things.

(all characters from daydreams, naturally)

hope you're all doing well!

[Haou]

I love your work! I really enjoy drawing as well. It really helps you sort of vent your daydreams without necessarily telling other people