Does Your MMD Make You Indecisive About the Future?

[Isis]

I'm not entirely sure if I'm the only one, but does having MMD make you indecisive about certain things in your life?

Recently, I've been having second thoughts about what I want to do with my life. I am going to be starting my Sophomore year in college in a week, and I' am happy about my current majors, but I'm entirely confused on what direction to take while studying my majors (I'm a double major).

For as long as I could remember I've had this one daydream, that has literally evolved from my life experiences, the tv shows I watch, and even the music I listen too. And throughout those years one thought occurred to me; I really want to share this daydream with everyone else, in the form of a story. But ever since then, I could never figure out a medium for that story.

I, at first and still do, write down all of my ideas for this one daydream but then I stop or procrastinate on my novel because animation seems like something that would capture more people's attention than a measly novel. So, I take my time to practice drawing and when my skills fall short of my expectations (and time) I decided to take on the next best thing. A video game.

Video games are totally popular now, people will surely purchase or download my game quicker than buying and reading a novel or watching an animation. I had the video game idea in my head for a long while to the point that I am now pursuing a doubble major in computer science and digital design. But now as the new school year approaches, my mind is suddenly diverging back to animation as I've become inspired to do animation again due to shows like Avatar: the last Airbender/Legend of Korra and RWBY. But sadly the only skills I have a good computer skills and writing capability, but no drawing skills.

All I truly want is to get this story that's been bouncing around in my head as a daydream for nearly 13+ years down and in front of the eyes of the general public. I want my story to either be read, watched, or played. But I'm worried that will never happen because of this indecisive trait of mine that's causing hinderance to my story being told and openly expressed. 

Am I the only whose going through this? Does anyone have any advice for my current situation? Thank you for taking the time out to read my little strange rant, of sorts. 

[Geobukseon]

I feel your pain, buddy, but you have to understand that, even putting thought and effort into what you want to do in life is crucial, timidity is the bane of ambition and that you can't keep doubting yourself if you want success.  To do this, there is a few tough facts that you have to accept about having MD:

- You develop SLOWER then others.  As much as it pains me to say it, YOU HAVE A DISABILITY; one that requires more time to break apart the reluctance and shyness to do things.

- Not everyone will respect you or the decisions you make.  As much as you want the world to see what plays out in your mind, you have to understand that there are going to be people that want to either bring you down or don't care.  Find the one's who will support you and that, dear friend, is a long and tough road.

I'm 23 and I'm still trying to get over the fact that I was separated from the Navy when the year began and thrust back into the personal issues that hindered me in college.  I want to show my friends and family that I've grown up, but all I've done is whine and avoided the issues that I've need to deal with. However, what I really needed to do was to stop thinking about the outcome of these things and find balance between acting and debating, for I know that to change for the better and to have a successful venture in life means patience, hard-work and decisiveness.

It's tough for me right now, even with all my friends moving towards there dreams and enjoying their lives, but I had to make the choices towards what was best for my future and forced myself to take the fall off to even figure out what I wanted in life!

All you need is confidence and faith. Just give yourself patience and don't give in to the doubts or the loathsome thoughts of self-hatred.

[Jonathan Eagle]

I did one of those meaningless desk jobs for about 5 months and all job required was that I highlight and copy Information from one place, paste into another area and changed the wording slightly. I had to do that for 4 hours every weekday with no brake and we weren't allowed to talk either so that made it worse. What did do? Well I daydreamed of course throughout those 4 hours each weekday and I eventually got fired as I made too many mistakes whist daydreaming despite how simple the workload is. Dull tedious work is cancer for the mind and it will drift off during those times.

If you truly have a story worth telling in a video game by all means do it however remember, all humans have their own ideas about a book they want to write or an idea for a film script. You need that get up and go attitude to get it out there though. MDs when you think about it suffer from an obscure form of ADD so the if the workload is very boring you will probably struggle but if you are truly passionate it won't be. As for me, I'm going to teach English at a university in China in September, could be the best thing ever or a complete disaster however it is a job that going to force me out of MDing as I'll have talk and socialise a lot with people and that's what I really need in a career.

[KHR]

I've done the same thing, at first I wanted to put my daydream into a video game like you, but then I switch my career choice to something more social, as I don't think I can sit at a desk and program all day because of my daydreaming. But now I'm going back to programming, and I don't want to just change my career choice every 5 seconds and tell people that I've changed it.