Celebrity MD Fixations

[doodlerbee]

From time to time over the last 30 years or so I've had fixations on celebrities which has spurred wasteful daydreaming. I have posted to websites or written letters in the past to make the exchange real and concrete. I've told myself to forget about this nonsense. But today in order to curtail some MD, I sent off a sarcastic comment to Dido's Facebook. I told her that her breakout song 'Thank you' was the worst song she ever made, that M&M had a stroke of genius by sending her off the bridge to drown in a car trunk for singing the song in his video 'Stan', that naming her kid Stanley was off the wall, that I wrote my comment out of a combo of OCD and resentment that she ever popped into my head. Now I regret doing it.

I wonder how many Celebrity fixated MD'rs there are out there?

[doodlerbee]

CELEBRITY FIXATED TALKING POINTS:

1. You're not somebody till nobody loves you. Celebs need lots of nobodies (fans) to be celebs.This is their true debt of gratitude and not the agents & fixers to whom they sold their souls to.
2. Dream lover or nightmare nemesis? Fan and celebs are each others nightmares perhaps? The celeb is the embodiment of all that afflicts the obsessed? Did we find what we were looking for ironically? Now the nobody knows how his mind was screwed up and by whom? Should he call the cops in or turn away from Hollywood Babylon and The City to live in the obscure tents of bliss?
3. I saw a fixation once live. Jenny Agutter's face when the curtain fell. I've thought, Jenny if you ever take the role of the wicked queen in Snow White, just try and recall what was running through your mind at curtain drop for Betrayal in 1980. What a cruel, narcissistic face? Mirror, mirror on the the wall! I saw the same face on Kate Nelligan in 'Moon for the Misbegotten' in 1984. You would have done better with a relaxed smile while your soul was stepping out the backstage door before the first curtain call.
4. I listened to Jodie Foster egg on John Hinckley before that Washington fiasco. I saw her humiliate her date at an Academy Awards interview. I've read she has commented: "When I see a wounded bird on the ground, I just want to kick it." I suppose the lack of deception here is something to be commended.
5. I conjured up Sarah Miles (former actress) playing Spielberg's "Bride of ET".  Ms. Hypocrite tells Joan Plowright (type character) she is against adultery. Joan angrily replies, "Codswallop" [close up on Sarah's face]. All the little children who first heard the word codswallop will forever associate it with the aged face of Sarah Miles, the bride of ET.
6. It is good to face our nightmare nemesis. Not as good as that dream love, but a needed stop along the way.

[Windy City Day Dreamer]

I am also the celebrity in my daydreams.  I think in real life I feel insignificant and so in my daydreams I am larger than life.

[doodlerbee]

I dream myself a celebrity too CWriter and a famous this or that also Windy. 'Thank You' was a big seller. Dido has her critics (KT Tunstall, Amy Winehouse have dissed her). Dido and celebs are often big daydreamers as well and imagined themselves famous before becoming so. "We are the stuff that dreams are made of." (Shakespeare more or less referring to actors/performers) And look at how people like Cathy Griffin, Tina Fey, Chelsea Handler and many comics go after celebs just to be funny and make money. So maybe I shouldn't feel so guilty. She will probably never read the comment anyway with thousands of comments on the site. And if she did, serves her right for not replying to my questions on her fan site that I thought were more germane to her art than "What is your favorite fruit?"

[Windy City Day Dreamer]

Thanks for the post.  I also use celebrities in my daydreams. I daydream about being a famous actress or dancer or writer.  I have never contacted any celebrities though. 

[doodlerbee]

That is probably the likeliest way to contact them ashlee. Letters won't likely make it through the agents. You may have a question answered on a website such as 'What is your favorite fruit?" Donate to their charity and you might get an autographed picture. Try to shake hands and say hello. It seems pointless though since you just fantasize about their characters. If you were looking for a job or something to sell on e-bay, maybe. Enjoy your stay in Toronto. They make some movies there and Canadian TV too.

[ashlee]

wow i thought i was the only one like this. i get way to attached to the celeberities that i use for characters in daydreams. like, i thought i was really obsessive or something.....i dont know. I live near toronto, one of my celebrity-based characters are going to the toronto film festival and im going to toronto on thursday IN HOPE that i catch a glimpse of her in real life. 

[doodlerbee]

As for Joey's comments below. Yup, fantasy is the easy way. Celebrities are often screwed up people with the same problems as their fixated fans. Celebrities tend to be compulsion driven people. What could be more stupid than going into acting, writing, music - jobs with great unemployment and high failure rating. They just can't do anything else and some succeed and some at an awful price (Lindsay Lohan, Britney Spears,  Amy Winehouse, etc.)  Maybe it is elective affinity that draws me to them (attraction brought about by similarities in psyche and maybe more compulsive than elective).

[doodlerbee]

Musicians, actors! You've still got famous scientists, mathematicians, statesmen, inventors, dancers and writers. At the rate you are going you will be a well rounded renaissance soul in your old age. Maybe you will do something great and have people fantasize about meeting you. Best wishes.

[doodlerbee]

My celeb romances: When I was 5 years old I really liked Debbie Reynolds who was on the drive-in movie screen a lot. It wasn't sexual so much. But I knew enough that boys and girls kissed and got together. I really liked Debbie. I developed a crush on Sarah Miles after seeing her in Ryan's Daughter. I even married her in my imagination but it ended in an imaginary divorce. She's not really my type. I developed a crush on Jenny Agutter after seeing her in Logan's Run in 1976. I saw her live in Boston in Pinter's Betrayal. The movie Walkabout also caught my interest. I wrote to her often, poems and stuff and asked to marry her. I never got any replies. I sort of got interested in Dido (singer) and got on her website. That was more of a curiosity thing. I sent some literary work to Jodie Foster looking for a sale, then asked for a job on her staff, then offered to marry her. Yeah I know about the Lesbian stories. When you get older you don't really have those intense feelings that you do in  your youth. I've always wanted to get married and a woman with a bit of financial resources wouldn't hurt either. These things have taken up a fair amount of my MDD time but not exclusively.  Oh, I wrote a couple of plays for Kate Nelligan using her name for the lead character (a gimmick). She rejected the plays. I've written her a few times since but get no replies. I really should forget about this, but I still write them or their sites to bounce ideas off of. I'm politically incorrect and dangerous for these women anyway. So I thought this might be of interest to some of you. It will take your mind off your MDD and into studying someone else's.

[doodlerbee]

Briefly, yes it did. You may find this odd (all the fixations were feminine), I feel I know these celebs much better than I would know someone that I met casually in a dating club scene or even on the web. You get broad background info on celebs from different points of view. I take the notion of carnal knowledge seriously. Good sex needs lots of knowledge about the significant other. The only halfway intense affairs I have had came at acting school. But these were wannabes more interested in career than romance per se and also I had no money. An established actress (celeb) would be more to my liking. I also have written and celebs can use material (lyrics, plays, whatever). In general this kind of relationship works well if you check out the history of this. Sandra Bullock marrying Jesse James? She would have been better off marrying some obscure screenwriter.