Where wild minds come to rest
I've been living by myself for 4 months now and at the beginning I was responsible and would do all house and college tasks as they would appear. Now that my exams have started I have been having a really hard time concentrating. Yesterday i've spent the most part of the day daydreaming, sleeping and going back to daydream even though I knew I had a really hard and important test today.
The test is 1 hour and 20 minutes from now and I still havent been able to focus to learn anything about it.
Last night I promised myself that I it would be the last day I would daydream and today i'd wake up earlier and make it up as much as I could for yesterday. None of it happened.
I woke up and started daydreaming
I went to facebook to check if there was anything new and I promised myself I would go and study.
I went back to daydreaming.
And so on .....
I've been trying to understand daydreaming behaviors as much as everyone here i guess. And I have the opinion that in some point daydreaming is like being addicted. It's like a drug.
I know i'm anxious and probably that's why so much MDD but damn .... it sucks.... because the longer I daydream the weaker a few to do whatever I KNOW I NEED TO DO...
the longer I keep without studying and everything, the more behind I feel... like, how am i going reach where I was suppose to be in studies and other stuff? ...
and there is this laziness that prevents me of being strong enough to make my brain stop daydreaming.
I keep asking myself: I AM INTELLIGENT. I KNOW I shouldn't be wasting my time with this, that it's not going to be good for my near future goals, so WHY THE F..... I keep doing this???
I need to get my strength back ....
sorry for this, guys.... It's just that i needed to say this to anyone...