Maladaptive Daydreaming: where wild minds come to rest
I have been daydreaming for a very long time. It wasn't so bad when I was in school because I could throw myself into homework and projects. But once I graduated from college, it got out of control. I imagined right after I graduated, that I would be discovered and nurtured by a mentor and become successful. I didn't know what I wanted to do and I didn't do anything but wait, and daydream and imagined something better would come along. I applied this principle to my relationships and friendships.
I knew something was wrong with me, but I thought I was the only one. The problem is that I can’t tell anyone, because, who would understand?
I am 33 years old now, I have been divorced twice, and I still live at home with my mom. I have depression, anxiety and social anxiety. I made a lot of mistakes because I expected the end results to be like my daydreams but it always turns out the opposite. My romantic relationships has been terrible, and to escape I daydream.
I never was able to hold a stable job because either the job didn’t turn out the way I imagined it to be, or its just too hard for me to focus because I daydream. As a result, I make a lot of mistakes.
I daydream about having lots of friends and having the perfect life but I don’t actively try to maintain my friendships, so I barely have any friends.
The fact that I start daydreaming 5 minutes into learning something for either a professional certification or for work.
I daydream as soon as I wake up, throughout the day and while falling asleep.
Sometimes I even start daydreaming in the middle of a conversation.
After being unemployed for 10 years I finally found a part time work from home job. And guess what? I’d rather daydream than learn.
I am not sure how to break out of this cycle and how to get my life together.
I ended up here because I googled how to stop daydreaming because I realized it’s time to do something about it. This cannot go on. I do not want to feel so stuck in my head anymore. And I want to be able to take care of myself and not rely on my elderly mother.