I'm been a bit panicky. Well, it happens. I have been dozing off a bit. I call daydreaming out of nowhere, "dozing off". All I have been doing is going in and out the hospital since my mom is in there. When I drive, it is annoying tho.

Either way, I am writing my next book as I can. It has been five months now. I've never taken that long to write a book. It usually takes about three months. I'm thinking of taking an extra month of writing it.

Other than that, I'm okay. I'm…

Just found out my mom has cancer. Big shock. Don't feel like doing anything. If anything, I actually thought that I would die before my parents. I would actually prefer that.

I thought about my reaction from hearing the news. On the inside, I was feeling very torn. The only expression I could give out was a subtle frown. I was never really good at showing my emotions on my own. When I am daydreaming, I would go all out with it. I would speak out my daydreams, walk in circles, and show…