Hey!


One day I just decided to buy a sketchbook and start doodling the stuff I dream about in it. That was half a year ago, and now the sketchbook is almost completely full. I've already posted a few pictures of the result on my blog, for those who saw that.

You can see the best results on my tumblr: CLICK THIS TO SEE PHOTO'S

With the small exceptions of a few drawings, all of the stuff you can see there, are things I dream of. Looking at the results, I am actually a bit amazed by myself. I never expected so many drawings would come out of this. A year ago I couldn't have imagined that MDD could ever power anything creative. I thought MDD was the obstacle that prevented me from achieving anything. It was my greatest demon. But this time I was able to create... well, "art" I guess because of it. My demon made this possible.

Just imagine if I didn't draw all that, all that stuff you can see would now just be still stuck in my head and it wouldn't exist, and I wouldn't be able to explain to anyone what was wrong with me. I'm so glad I made the choice of starting a sketchbook, and I would just like to encourage others to start a sketchbook too. I think it can help. It's not like it can cure MDD, but it definetly can make you feel a bit better about yourself. If you can't express the things happening inside of you, you might as well just be an aweful person that never gets something done in his/her life. Thats how that feels anyways. But when I look again at all these drawings I made over the months, I can see what has been happening to me my entire life. I don't see it in a negative way anymore. Most of my drawings are very simple and bad, because I don't put much effort in it, but still they show me that my brain has potential of doing amazing things. If only I had a bit more control, I could achieve all sorts of greateness. Thats how I feel now. And I'm glad that I finally got to feel a bit happy and proud about my MDD, and about myself. It's so rare, and I think it is how many of us deserve to feel.

Because honestly we're all amazing and perfect! <3

So realy I would recommend to anyone to just buy a sketchbook and start doodling. The great thing is that your drawings don't have to be any good for it to work. You just have to doodle whatever. Quality will only come over time, or won't come at all, but the process is what liberated me honestly. My tumblr may be deceiving because I only display the best results there, but believe me when I say I made a lot of crap too, as is the intention. Sketching is all about expressing all the visual ideas you have, without any need or pressure of it being any good. I'm saying this because many people that will read this will probably think "But I can't draw!" (ok maybe thats not likely in this particular group...) but honestly not being great at drawing is no problem! If you like to doodle, this will be perfect. Doesn't realy matter if your strength actually is in writing or anywhere else. Let that sketchbook be one great mess, that will set your creativity free the most. :)

Most of all: It's just incredibly fun to do. I would start having drawing sessions instead of daydreaming sessions. It didn't realy help the MDD go away, it just sort of replaced the dreaming with drawing, and it wasted just as much time. But at least drawing gave me results in the real world, while Daydreaming never did. Now, because I've drawn over nearly 200 pages full with crap, I've had such a good excercice that  I realy learned how to draw a bit better and for the first time in my life MDD has had a productive impact on me. I learned things. I progressed in my creative life. Because of MDD. For someone like me; who dreams half of the day and constantly zones out of whatever activity I'm in, constantly losing contact with reality and wasting days of my life making my efforts in college and my future suffer. For someone like me this is realy a nice change.

So, I suggest you'd draw. Whenever you dream about something, think of how you would draw it. Take some paper and a pencil and just start, and then laugh at the crappy result. I promise you it's amazingly fun. :D

Thank you for reading this!

what about you?

Anyone else likes to draw/sketch/doodle about their dreams?

Anyone else had any liberating creative experiences like this?

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