Where wild minds come to rest
hey everyone! i haven't been online much but there is something that i really wanted to share with someone and since i don't have anyone close enough to discuss this with i am sharing this on this website.
so basically i have been suffering from depression along with md for i long time now(im 18 by the way) and i have had suicidal thoughts for a while now. my result comes out tommorow and have been anxious for my marks. this year before my finals i was so stressed about my score that i started cutting myself. i don't do it anymore.
i also want to go to a different city for my graduation but my parents are not ready to send me.my family situation has always been pathetic(not abusive though).
anyway i quite frequently have suicidal thoughts. i know myself enough to know that im not brave enough to actually try it ever.but sometimes i wish i had the guts to kill myself. i know suicide isn't the answer but i sometimes dying looks better than going on living. i mean i have lost the will to actually live.i don't care about my future anymore and at times i wish my life was already over.
does anyone else has similar thoughts?