Why I desired to dream

[Silver Swan]

I found very few people who cared for me, shared common things and wanted to be my friend, also finding a relationship with someone was close to impossible, so I think this prompted my desire to maladaptive daydream. I got diagnosed with autism spectrum disorder, so it was always hard to connect with just about anybody. Even to this day it's very frustrating to turn things around and make life better. I haven't seen people much in quite a while, because I freelance at home on my computer. On weekends, I pretty well do my own stuff, and sometimes I hang out with family. It's not exactly the most exciting lifestyle for a 32 year old. You'd expect your future to be a blast. Still, I am still waiting around for that awaited relationship to come, with somebody special who can relate with me very well.