thank you very much for inviting to be your friend here. I would be very much interested in sharing your experience with mine. All this is vey new for me ( knowing about the existence of MDD) and although it is hell, of course , it good to know that we are not alone. I am very ashamed of it but I think that to be able to talk is a very good beginning to heal. It cannot be worse than it is.
I am in my late 40's now and I have suffered from MDD since I was 6 yeras old, as far as I remember. the worse is that I can even recall how it has started. It was a schock for me to discover that this can be considered as an illness ( altought not yet expressed as such) for what you say is right, I am convinced that it is an illness, certainly a kind of OCD and as such we will have to treat it with medication one day. I also suffer from another OCD since childhood and that one no medication and no therapy has ever been able to solve. I think I can be very happy not be an alcoholic or drug addict, but MDD is a kind of drug which will not kill me, maybe, but will depress me and destroy my social life, if I do not get out of it once and for all. I have wasted my life because of it. I only wish that research will definitely help these young ones in future for when I read that some of them do not want to quit MDD, because that is the most important thing they have, it makes me cry !!! I will come back to you later. Thank you for your comments in advance and thank you for sharing !!