This is going to sound annoying. Living in a town for 29 years, all I ever heard by others is that I'm so quiet. They literally couldn't get a word out of me. I was too busy daydreaming in my head to realize how I looked on the outside. I actually never knew it made me look stupid. Non-family can be vigorous that way. I always used MD as a way to escape my frustrations, but it did me more harm that good, so I had to quit. It was the best decision I made. 

What reasons did you start doing MD? We're their any social issues involved that triggered this? 

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Comment by Kiruba Victor on September 12, 2021 at 10:37pm

Yeah, I wish I was like my brother in some ways, but I know that I have some good qualities of my own as well, so I'm fine with it. If I had the chance to date someone, I think I might do good. I don't know how people date online, but I'd definitely want to meet the person.

I'm not yet independent, although I want to be. MD kept me complacent and I wasted 2 years of my life because of it, so I have to start fresh.

Comment by Jessica Ballantyne on September 12, 2021 at 5:25pm

I expect things and they never appear, and then I get disappointed. When I'm content and go with the flow, then something pops up out of the blue. Usually a friend, if anything. So maybe I should go with the flow, and not expect anything, and something will come up. 

Comment by Jessica Ballantyne on September 12, 2021 at 3:26pm

I think that I didn't earn my independence, because I wasn't passionate in the career I was in. If I payed more attention in school, and to people, and stayed awake in life, I would've had a better idea of who I am today. Instead of taking a trip to Pluto like I did. It just made me confused, lost and far behind, and lose out on things. That's probably why I feel so jealous and deprived today. 

Comment by Jessica Ballantyne on September 12, 2021 at 1:41pm

My sister's boyfriend Simone came over for a visit this afternoon. It was nice to meet him and we had a good chat. Regards, I envy my sister's success. I sometimes wish I were her, and not me. 

Comment by Kiruba Victor on September 12, 2021 at 8:18am

Well, I don't crush on celebs these days, just real life people. My problem is I start falling for people too fast. And it leads to very uncomfy moments for ne.

Well, I just need to survive anyhow. After that, I'll figure out the rest.  My friend told me about it, so with his help, I'mma try it out.

Comment by Jessica Ballantyne on September 12, 2021 at 7:24am

Have you ever seen a good movie, and you like a character in it, and you still think about it for days, weeks, even a month? This happens to me all the time. I've seen a few movies this year, and find myself crushing on one of the lead characters. 

Comment by Jessica Ballantyne on September 12, 2021 at 7:03am

To be honest, I never gave a very good impression my whole life. I got slammed with bullying the very year I moved to town. It didn't stop there. Even after my school years were over, I still got manipulated by adults. Everybody felt I didn't talk and I had no friends. If COVID were over, and I started going back into crowds, I'd be hearing the same criticisms today. 

Comment by Jessica Ballantyne on September 12, 2021 at 6:38am

Well, it depends if I can make a good impression when it comes down to meeting people. I can be a bit tired, or even heat up at the sudden new crowd I don't know, and go back to my family on one side of the room. I'm aware that I don't always connect with others at my level. I does depend on how I connect with and how well we get on each other. This aside from the fact I'm a pretty face with talent and cleverness. It's really all about WHO you are that makes all the difference and what you can give to someone else. You might think you're attractive or pretty, but it's a matter of being approachable and talkative, and sociable. That is something I struggled with for so many years, and my social and relationship life suffered due to this. Let's face it, I'm quite an introvert. 

So you're thinking of starting graphic design and UI/UX. Go ahead and try it out. I have to comment, it is not an easy subject. I'm still fighting to get a job spot in this field, and deciding if I should stick or train for a new career. You have to be driven to do well, or you'll probably not succeed. 









Comment by Kiruba Victor on September 11, 2021 at 9:34pm

Yeah, I do give a good impression to people, enough to make a good friend. I learnt that making friends, at least with worthwhile people is easy. All it takes is trust, loyalty, and some amount of contact.

I might start learning graphic design, and UI UX. I need a job right now to manage my expenses.

Comment by Jessica Ballantyne on September 11, 2021 at 3:17pm

I am good looking, smart and talented, with an expressive gift, only problem is that I'm not approachable to people. So they get angry or frustrated and go on to people who can actually talk and interact. I've had so many ask if I'm tried or I had a bad day. I think that I give others the impression that I don't socialize. So they don't know what to say and turn away, and take pity on me. 

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