Where wild minds come to rest
I made it a couple weeks without pacing.
I relapsed recently- but in a different way than before.
Usually, there was one place (my bedroom) where I could pace and daydream for hours.
I've been able to avoid pacing there since February 14th, but in turn, I've begun pacing in other places, like a locked bathroom or the halls of my house when everyone is gone. It feels like a relapse, although the severity of the pacing is lowered because my time is limited and can be interrupted in the new places I spend daydreaming.
It's kind of humiliating though. I'll run a bath and pace while it fills so that my time spent in the bathroom makes more sense to others, but taking 3-4 hour baths a day isn't healthy...And what I'm doing for most of that time isn't healthy either.
(I'd go on more walks, but the streets are laced with ice, so it's dangerous to wander off in my head this time of year.)
It's hard. Trying to work with this is hard.
I don't know what to do. Here's my S.O.S, what can help?