I have cried several times. I feel a great deal of pain. I wrote some poems but they are so bad. The only friend I have is not talking to me for some reason. I don't know what I did because we hadn't spoken in a while. I have "friends" but none of them respond to anything I say. I am so isolated and so alone. My family just dismisses me and doesn't understand me.

It just confirms the vicious cycle for why I DD. It is the only way I have to forget that I am all alone. I just don't…