I'm being treated for psychotic symptoms and it's making it so hard to daydream.

I feel like I'm at a fork in the road and I have to decide whether I want to get better or live depressed, but with my daydreams.

It's hard. On one hand, I want to get better. I want to be a musician and have friends and do all sorts of normal things. I don't want to be miserable anymore. I want to be a happy, functioning person.

On the other hand, I can't let go of this. I've built up this…

I've been diagnosed with something that causes my daydreams so I've been trying to stay away since I don't have MD, but it's really hard because this was the only place where I could talk to people like me. 

It just sucks. I hate my disorder, but it's the only thing that keeps me happy. It makes me so unhappy and prevents me from having meaningful relationships, but it gives me the most amazing imaginary life. I just hate it so much, but I can't let go of it.