Creator's Blog – December 2010 Archive (5)

Daydreaming is my only identity

I realize now why I don't want to stop daydreaming- it's because without MD, I'd still be an awkward person and socially inapt. The only difference is that I'd have no tangible reason  for it.  MD is something with a name that I can claim as a part of me. Without it, I would go back to being just a weird kid, for no reason at all.

 

I just want to be something. Anythinig. I have no sense of "me". I guess you could say that I'm scared of the real world, and what it would do to…

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Added by Creator on December 24, 2010 at 1:00pm — 2 Comments

Why I can't quit

In my daydreams, I always dream that everybody loves me. I'm the most important person in the room. Now I think I understand why:

There's this party tonight I was gonna go to. I got all dressed up and stuff...got all pretty... then I just sat down and almost started crying. Based on my past experiences with parties, I know that if I go to this party that no one, and I mean no one, will want to talk to me. I'm not a "cool" kid. I'm just a random 17 year old girl. I'm just "some girl".…

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Added by Creator on December 17, 2010 at 4:50pm — 3 Comments

No More Daydreaming: Day 2

Hypothesis: I figured this would happen.

Experiment: I was doing fine all day. I took my finals, came home and just chilled.

Data: Then, I became bored. Alas, this lead to my down fall.

Conclusion: Keep yourself constantly busy in the early stages.

*sigh* lets hope this doesnt happen again tomorrow. fml.

Added by Creator on December 15, 2010 at 1:54pm — 2 Comments

No More Daydreaming: Day 1 part 2

Sooooooo today... I'd say that I've kept myself busy pretty well. I've felt the need to daydream a couple times when I've had the chance to, but I've resisted, which is interesting for me. See, I'm pretty weak when it comes to giving into…

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Added by Creator on December 14, 2010 at 7:54pm — 2 Comments

12/14 No More Daydreaming: Day 1

I've tried this before. Once before. For two months straight, I never paced and daydreamed. I thought my problems were solved.

However, after learning more about this disease, I can see that I didn't really purge myself of it…

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Added by Creator on December 14, 2010 at 7:11am — No Comments

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