August 2013 Blog Posts (79)

Improving My Batting Average

I guess someone from the outside looking in would not think MD has affected my life.   I am an attorney at a Fortune 500 Company. In addition to my JD,  I have two master degrees.  I have been married for 17 years and have a son.  BUT MD has affected my life.  I think I could have more friends than I do now if I wasn't devoting my extra time to DD.  Although I did keep in touch with my mom over the years, I should have called more - but she is dead now from ovarian cancer.  I also would keep…

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Added by Windy City Day Dreamer on August 11, 2013 at 2:08pm — No Comments

Real Life Musings Part 2....and in relation to daydreams.

I apologize in advance that this may be a little messy. I'm not sure where to start.

I've always been indecisive and afraid of settling. It takes me forever to make some rather trivial decisions such as the things I want and the things I want to experience. Sometimes I feel as if my daydreams have caused this by taking out my "identity," so to speak, and that I want to be very careful with who I "really" am. I always wished that I would "be me" naturally; as in no hesitations when it…

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Added by Taylor on August 11, 2013 at 3:11am — 1 Comment

Earliest Memories

I think it started with a parrot.

In my minds eye I can see that parrot, or at least what I think is a parrot...might have been a Cockatoo or some other domesticated bird.



I was about 2 1/2 to 3 years old. I lay in my bed at the Highlands St. house.

It was dark outside and for some reason there wasn't any curtains on my window. I think we had just moved there. I had woke up for some reason...I don't know why.



I look out that window and there is a… Continue

Added by Larry on August 10, 2013 at 5:09pm — No Comments

Depressive State

I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder 6 years ago when I was nineteen. It was shortly after that that I started losing myself into daydreams. I was always an imaginative child but it was usually just with ordinary childhood games like house, Barbies, or games that children play together, with the exception of a "sort of" imaginary friend that I had when I was around three years old. She wasn't really a friend, she was another little girl that I spun around and turned into. Interesting…

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Added by Audrey on August 10, 2013 at 3:26pm — 3 Comments

MD has been a true source of energy and happiness for me

When I first found out I had MD a few years ago, I was incredibly pissed off and upset. I felt like I was literally daydreaming my whole life away. 

I don't really know what happened since then and now, but I've come to realize that my MD has been a good thing. Whenever I get upset, I daydream for an hour or so and afterwards I feel so much more refreshed, happy, and energized for the rest of my day. 

Whenever I feel restless or stressed out, my daydreams have honestly been…

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Added by Andrea on August 10, 2013 at 9:07am — 2 Comments

Daydreaming as soon as i wake up...

I start daydreaming as soon as i wake up most mornings. it's like i go through periods of being able to go right back to sleep after waking up to not being able to go back to sleep after waking up.

A week ago i would go to bed at 12 midnight and sleep until 7am-7:30am. And then my mom had to go to work around 7am so she'd be up at 6:30am  and she'd wake me up with all the noise she made. 

now its like i cant even sleep until 7am. i keep waking up at 6:30am-ish…

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Added by KwanKwan on August 10, 2013 at 8:06am — 1 Comment

Strange DD

Been daydreaming about being put in a mental hospital. I was so happy to go. I felt like I could finally rest, be safe. Very strange.

Added by greyartist on August 10, 2013 at 6:14am — No Comments

Messed up on the Meds

Woke up this morning after an hour long love affair with the snooze button feeling like I had been run over by a cement truck.

And since I've actually been run over by a cement truck I can assure you that it's identical....sans the swollen leg.



Think it started yesterday morning.

I forgot to take my anxiety meds first thing and started my gluttony of coffee consumption without them.

I was too excited about getting to the library and checking my posts and email.( I… Continue

Added by Larry on August 9, 2013 at 8:34pm — 3 Comments

DD Genetic?!

Hello everyone, I have an interesting question that I am not sure if anyone has found this to be true: but is DD a genetic problem? Recently I spoke to my mother about  this issue to come to find that not only she, but just about all of my siblings have DD as well. My youngest brother has it very badly, to the point where he can be in public and clearly is in another world, laughing to himself and moving his mouth silently. It is very embarrassing. However, according to my motehr, even my…

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Added by Daniel K on August 9, 2013 at 4:20am — 4 Comments

Mindless Babble

Woke up today feeling like a bloody million bucks. 

All positive thoughts about what the day will bring and all the things I'll be doing in it.

Thinking about how great my new meds are and all the possibilities it's opened up for me.



After my second cup of coffee it starting raining on my parade a little bit, but not by much.

I still feel pretty good and all, but I just don't have all that sunshine and rainbows shooting out my backside.



But, the message was… Continue

Added by Larry on August 8, 2013 at 6:24pm — 1 Comment

Saphris Day 2

Doing pretty good on the Saphris I think. The anxiety is numbed and I haven't noticed any negative self talk.

I am also spending more time in the present..... I think

It could be that these have always been and I'm just now noticing them.

I guess I'm not too sure about anything right now, but I still have that sense of hope I left Seattle with.



I don't think the Saphris is going to cure my MD.

I'm ruminating a lot more (I think), and though the anxiety associated… Continue

Added by Larry on August 7, 2013 at 6:47pm — 2 Comments

Saphris in Seattle

Well, Seattle was as bad as I'd imagined it.

I managed not to run anybody over or get run over.

I did get grumped at by a little old lady in a walker for holding the door open for her. Probably would've upset me if I'd been anyplace else.



Showed up about two hours early as Seattle traffic is notoriously unpredictable and nonsensical. I'd end up paying big for that in parking charges.....but if I hadn't showed up that early there'd been a possibility that I'd miss my… Continue

Added by Larry on August 6, 2013 at 6:43pm — 1 Comment

Seeing my Drug Dealer

Gonna go see my drug dealer (psychiatrist) tomorrow.

Have to drive into Seattle.....(insert cuss words here)

The drivers are maniacs, the pedestrians are suicidal, and the bicyclists are obnoxious. The traffic lights are next to the crosswalk signs and not hung over the intersection like the rest of the civilized world.

I'll be showing up with elevated blood pressure and enough anxiety to drop a horse.

But, that's what I gotta do to work with a doctor who takes his job…

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Added by Larry on August 4, 2013 at 9:00pm — 2 Comments

Patterns in daydreams

I don't know what it's like for anyone else, but in my other-worldly adventures, the same types of personality types show up again and again.

For example, in a "romantic" scenario, the male character is always, in some way emotionally unavailable. Even if they're relatively normal in  the beginning of the tale I usually find a way to screw them up!

"And why is this?" asks my (jokingly) named Voice of Reason.

I go all Freudian and answer myself - "Probably because I had…

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Added by Zaphod on August 3, 2013 at 11:12am — 2 Comments

DD when you should be sleeping

I have daydreamed when I should be sleeping. Sometimes I dd the whole night. Unbelievable. Then, I am tired the next day. Sometimes which is often, I wake up and want to start dd. I choose tonight to get some sleep and when I wake up tomorrow I want the first thing that I want to do is to hug my son.

Added by Windy City Day Dreamer on August 2, 2013 at 8:39pm — 3 Comments

A decision to make

My son is asleep. My husband is cooking dinner. I could daydream right now. I think daydreaming protects me from taking risks in my life. It easier to daydream that you are a writer than to try to actually be one. It is easier to daydream that you are in the throes of deep romantic love than create it in real life. In my day dream world I can control if I get rejected, not in the real world. My decision is to not daydream right now. It is a small triumph that could lead to others small… Continue

Added by Windy City Day Dreamer on August 2, 2013 at 7:26pm — 2 Comments

Go on and break this castle of glass, burn it down and burn it fast...

Go on and break this castle of glass. Burn it down and burn it fast. It doesn't matter anyway, because every thing falls and every thing breaks. Even the bird that flies above, can be shot down with just one gun.

I wrote this little bit last night and even after morning broke, it still rang true.  I should have checked myself into a hospital or something, because right now I feel just as hopeless as I did before. The headache doesn't help.

I feel like I can't trust anyone…

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Added by April Dawn Hale on August 2, 2013 at 10:45am — 1 Comment

So I Am New, Too

Hello Fellows.

I'm putting my intro in a blog rather than spam the boards with it.

So.

I'm mostly a girl, 23 years old.

Mild Trigger warning- mentions of abuse and self-destruction

I remember daydreaming since I was very little.  I remember lying in bed and pretending I was a power ranger (:P) who was hurt and required the nurturing of the others.  Many of my more involved daydreams still have this theme (though more sophisticated now).  I…

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Added by Lynx on August 2, 2013 at 8:16am — 1 Comment

New Here and Intensely Shy

I've just joined the network today after searching for answers for years. I have been intensely DD for over a decade now and never knew that it was a "thing". When I was younger, I always kind of assumed that everyone else had a second (or third or fourth) life that they lived inside their heads. It wasn't until high school, when I mentioned it to a close friend, that I realized how unusual it is to constantly and vividly DD. I just thought everyone lived a thousand different…

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Added by bbcjohnlocked on August 1, 2013 at 2:27pm — 3 Comments

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