i have had BAD social anxiety for almost two years, after finding out that my group of friends secretly hated me because i was annoying. (i'm in high school.)  i only leave the house when i absolutely have to (in the summer, it was only about once a week). when i do leave the house, i don't like to talk because i'm afraid of annoying people, and i can't stop thinking "don't look at me don't look at me" because i hate the way i look. i try my best to avoid social situations, and i have almost…

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I’m sorry I haven’t posted or done a radio show, or youtube video for weeks. I am not functioning well right now. I’m in one of those phases where I am so desperate for an answer, for help, for escape from this curse in my mind. That I get depressed and hopeless. Unable to do little more then put one foot in front of the other…

This blog has nothing to do with Maladaptive Daydreaming, but I want it to be out there in case anyone Googles it, like I did, and wants to know about the procedures.  

As many of you on here know, I've been suffering from GERD for many years, and it has gotten to the point where it has become unbearable, and simple over-the-counter Prilosec wasn't working anymore.  I went to the doctor and was prescribed a double dose of Prilosec.  This helped somewhat, but I still had a lot…

A year ago I left my husband after only 3 years of being together (dating + marriage) because he was abusive. Before this relationship, I had always thought of myself as a strong and intelligent woman who would have never allowed a man to treat me bad. Ever since, I have been on an inward journey determined to make the most of and learn as much as possible from my experience.

Recently, I've been working through a book, Is It Love Or Is It Addiction?, that has provided much…

Hello all,

I know that childhood trauma is highly correlated with incidence of MD. What is your personal experience? Do you think your MD was more-so encouraged by events that took place in your life, or do you feel that you were born with a predisposition to daydream?

My parents fought a lot as I was growing up, but I have other family members who did not turn out like me... so it is a confusing pile to sort!  Thanks!

I have DD about a story line for almost a year. I was completely obsessed with it. The characters are real people, but I do not live near the people anymore and never see them and no chance of seeing them ever again. 

Now I have a new story line coming on and it also involves a real person. It's CRAZY or I am one. I find myself not only DD about this person and making up this elaborate story line involving them, but I also find myself being obsessed with this person. I also see this…

Hello, friends. 

Ever since I was young, two activities became my daily "bread and butter", so to speak; walking and daydreaming. Granted, I can walk without daydreaming, and I can certainly daydream without walking. But only when I combine the two does the experience become truly satisfying.

In my mind's eye, I'm strong. I'm proud. I'm clever. And most importantly, I never lose. Everything is always under control. One would probably be right to say that my idealized version is…

I am trying to write more when I MD, so at least I get something productive out of it all. Here is a snippet from what I was able to write today:

A small girl of 4 years danced on the edge of reality. As she crossed the stone bridge over Canteur creek, her mind made the wilting poppies brighten to vivid crimson. The shade from the trees scattered light on the creek below and a strong breeze blew from the south, ruffling leaves and muffling the sound of the…

For anyone, trying to stop MDing or curb it...  the question we ask ourselves is when does DDing  turn into MD.  How much is too much? Should I not DD at all because it could lead to MD?   Can I still DD but try to put limits on it?  Am I capable of putting limits on it or does it become a slippery slope? Should I just avoid my favorite MD scenarios that lead to bingeing where I daydream for hours on end? How do I manage this?   

 Dr. Eli Somér who first proposed the phrase,…

There's this thing I notice I often do- when I've driven somewhere, usually back home, and am in not hurry, I will sit there and DD for a bit. It's not caused any trouble or anything, though I wonder if anyone's noticed that sometimes there's a large time lapse between the car pulling up and the door opening.

A while back, I house-sat for a few days, and I spent a lot of time DDing, and just lazing around, doing jackall, but I did have to drive a few times. One of those times when I…

well divorce took forever cost my 6,000 and I got stuck with motorcycles I had to sell for payments. praying they'll keep paying for them. I'm still angry and I don't think I'll ever get over it. my boyfriend is great we have little problems, heck my son takes all my time and working part time to take care of him. so I have no money and way indebt, probably if I can get free legal help file for bankruptcy. but that cost a big chunk of money to file so maybe not. I try not to think about it…

I haven't really had any major withdrawals from MD, yet.  I noticed that I am having creative urges. For example, I was walking my son to daycare and I looked intently at a tree and the grooves in its bark - they looked like wrinkles - I wanted to take out a pad and just draw every indentation, curve, valley, peak, shading of the bark of the tree.  I have never taken an art or drawing class.  I think I may just do that one day- just sit by a tree and draw it. Maybe take a drawing class.

I found this poem today and I really like it :)

A Dream Within A Dream- Edgar Allan Poe

"Take this kiss upon the brow!

And, in parting from you now,

Thus much let me avow-

You are not wrong, who deem

That my days have been a dream;

Yet if hope has flown away

In a night, or in a day,

In a vision, or in none,

Is it therefore the less gone?

All that we see or seem

Is but a dream within a dream.

I stand amid the…

I thought I would experiment for the next thirty days and do my best to not MD. Today, there was no MD.  It was difficult as I was walking around the park with my son in his stroller and I wanted to daydream.  Instead, I felt the hot scorching sun on my face and watched other parents with their kids. My son is only 22 months but he always wants to try  the playground equipment that is really for older kids. Really admire his adventurous spirit and his confidence.   I normally now would turn…