I think many of you also have trouble staying focused when you are trying to work or study.

I find that sometimes I go into a "MDD tailspin" when I have a lot of work/ or important work to do. I remember distinctly that when it came to studying I was always distracted by my MDD. I also have an underlying hyper vigilance that usually gets in the way.

I found this online site/ company called focus@will

Here are some links:…

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 I am finding that when I go on a MD binge that I don't take care of the house like I should. Dishes pile up. Piles of dirty clothes. Not picking up after myself.  Then, I come off my binge and then try to detox my house. 

It’s a rare night.

Sleepless. Slightly haunted. In a good way though.

Feeling the memories of past nights reverberate in my bones.

My skin remembers what my head does not.

Things that other people said to me echo in my brain like I just heard it yesterday

But it has been so much longer than that.

Everything feels so far away.

I’m behind a veil.

I’m looking sideways.

I feel a thousand things that I said before on my lips tonight again.

I’m aching…

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There's a girl I've been seeing for a long time. She changes, evolves. I meet her different places, we have different first dates. 

Sometimes we bump into each other at a convenience store, sometimes she's a new employee at clients business I work with. She's just like me, she likes the same things I do. She understands me, supports me. We talk about stuff I like to talk about. Supercomputers, video games, she has it all.

I've come to realize that just about…

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I'm sixteen, and ever since I was little I had been airy and up in the clouds as described by others. In kindergarten, the biggest concern was me daydreaming. It had resulted in me failing to recite the alphabet in French. Regardless, I have a terrible inclination to daydream and bed rock whilst doing so. There are several characters I play around with, or a much better version of myself (with a different personality). Which could be explained by the contradicting expectations of my father. I… Continue

I need some thoughts on this situation that a friend of my friend is going through.She is unhappy and hurts everyone both intentionally and unintentionally and does not know what she wants. she has no friends, only "friends" for the sake of hell as she described. Is it okay to hurt others to be yourself? even if you dont know who you are?

I didn't receive the type of validation and attention that children should receive. I don't think many of us did.  It caused me in my teens and early 20s to struggle for an acceptance and validation that cannot be found outside of one's parents. I think it's an issue many people struggle with, whether or not they have daydreams. 

What makes it interesting enough for me to post about it though is how these issues are affecting my daydreams. My assistant manager at my job is, in short,…

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