I don't feel like myself. Honestly, I'm not sure who I am anymore, but it can't be this.



I get irritated over the smallest things, and then the pressure builds and I feel volatile, like a bomb about to go off. I want to shout, scream, and break something. I never let it all out, though. I'm able to keep it to huffing and puffing, emitting steam, and fidgeting, but I can't get myself to calm down. The sounds of people talking, moving around, and the vibrations as they walk irritate me… Continue

Hey all my fellow DDers: Does this site help or hinder?  I am conflicted.  I want to stop but, not really.  I hate missing life and feeling unfulfilled, yet I love the escape of real life dding gives me. 

Such conflicting emotions: guilt, confusion and frustration.  I feel like my life is never really one way or the other.  Just a jumble of ups and downs. 

DDing has become some sort of therapy for when everything that is "real" is out of control, it is the one thing I can…

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Hi people, i just wanted to know how you felt about the idea of using Neural Programming as therapy for MD.  I've been doing online research and have found out that beta sound waves are supposed to help with OCD.  So recently i've been listing to beta wave sound tracks by my wireless bluetooth headset throughout my day to day life and it seems to be helping.  I've heard a lot about how music often triggers MD in a lot of us so by that logic maybe it can un-trigger(lack of a better word) MD…

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          Just a short diary sort of thing, again, in the hopes that it'll de-stress me, so you'll probably find it quite boring.

          So, I went to bed at 11AM this morning; woke at 3PM to the door; wasn't for me; wasn't even the right door he was knocking in. So, I enthusiastically acknowledged his mistake and apologised for the fact I couldn't help him whilst refraining from punching him in the face for his mistake in waking me. Great start to the day.

          Layed…

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Here's an except from our book and a concept drawing done by Gethin.

I remember the day I pulled on my first Canaan kit. It was number 47, Alain Plante. It still fit Gabe, he just felt bad for me and figured it would cheer me up. It was the most perfect shade of purple I had ever seen. A deep royal colour accented with two golden yellow stripes striking through the chest. The number and Plante’s name were a crisp white on the back. It looked like it had never been worn before,…

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All of us MDs seem to face multiple problems,according to all the posts i have read,i would say consentrating on something is hard for all of us.like all the creative people out there,we are not disciplined either.i searched and didnt found any posts on these,so i am starting one.please guys and girls :) answer these questions.if you have any info on these please share.

1.how do you consentrate on boring works?

2.how do you concentrate when you have to study something you dont like… Continue

Anyone ever do that? He said it may help to "tell" the subconcious to not be so intrusive.

Hello mates........n thanx to cordellia for approving my membership :) .....i am 19 n have been daydreaming since .......i cant really remember.....it probabbly started when i was 5-6.......it started getting worse in 2008......its still quite bad.....i came to know about MD just 2 weeks ago....n have been trying to stop daydreaming ever since.....i got some succeesss but i have been having horrible nightmares since then,seems like my brain is trying to punish me!!!!!! i cant ask help....nobody… Continue

This is just an old poem I wrote a while back last year. It's not very good, but feedback would still be nice.

Bubbling, unrealistic, desires,

so inseparable we need pliers.

Hone you're so venomous

it leaves blessedness.

A secret I won't tell

how these actions impel,

because I've become an addict

to the pain you inflict.

I hear your whispering  call

and fight my inner brawl

to your…

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These days I realized that I've been feeling anxious and plain paranoid in situations that I shouldn't be feeling these things in the first place. I haven't hung out with one of my bestfriends for a long time since she does have a lot of work this semester. But today is my mom's birthday and yesterday last minute I planned to make cake for her and surprise her at 12. So I called my friend last minute, somehow convinced my mom to let me go at night to her house. And that's where I made the…

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I'm typing this because it feels like signing a contract. I want to stop DD, right now, today, not tomorrow or next week or next month, now.

Simce I DD from early childhood, this will be my biggest challenge so far. And my biggest fear.

But I guess I've reached my breaking point. If I don't stop I'll go mad. I'm 21 and when I look back I don't recognize myself. I want my life back, actually, I want my mind back. I want to see things, see through a window without having…

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Hello there. First of all, I would like to apologize for one of my dramatic blogs I posted a while ago. (Not sure why I'm apologizing since it's most likely forgotten. I suppose I'm ashamed of it.) Anyway. I have a few questions to ask about MD. #1: Do your daydreams ever connect to your dreams? Everytime I try to lucid dream, if I try to invite one of my DD characters I am either clicked into a dream, or the character tries to appear but ends up a black fuzzy figure...which is really freaking… Continue

A rising football star struggles with his professional and personal life when he is given custody of his dead brother’s twins.

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I woke up to the sound of the wind bashing the garden gate against the side of the flat. F***, I didn’t shut it. That ****ing dog probably s*** back there and I’ll tread in it. I rolled over and, forgetting I had fallen asleep on the couch, flipped onto the floor.…

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I've written the introduction to a story based on a DD that I've just started writing (I haven't got very far and it'll probably be unrecognisable once I've edited it). Here it is. Please comment/leave constructive criticism

When our ancestors first escaped the catastrophe, they fled to the corners of our island, to the North and to the West. Unable to use the roads which the Order controlled, they travelled by sea, and thus the first…

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I woke up this morning feeling very positive. Last night I had a conversation with my mother which led to me "coming out" about my addiction to fantasizing. She looked so confused, but was surprisingly supportive. She kept saying that humans have the ability to self heal. My long search for answers has been an attempt to self heal. Joining this networking is also an attempt to self heal. So, I will give myself credit for not just allowing maladaptive daydreaming to overthrow my entire life.…

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