I decided to write this post instead of plunging into my daydreams.

I'm writing this post, because I feel frustrated.

I'm about to fall apart. Not the first time and definitely not the last.

I've wasted a week on daydreaming. Instead of doing research for my dissertation, looking for a job, preparing for jobi nterviews, writing a personal statement for my postgraduate application, studying for my courses to make most of this last semester of my undergrad studies,…

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I often doubt how to start blogs, so I decided not to write an introduction to this one and just jump ahead into it. 

I'm struggling a lot lately and I'm feeling hammered by guilt as I'm - again - not able to focus on anything else but my head. I know I have this capacity to let myself be totally submerged into a task, get into it, grind and "wake up" a few hours later, being proud of what I achieved. But it does not seem to work for my job.

I don't often dream…

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Yesterday I was talking to my friend about MD for the first time, and he said that he had the EXACT same condition! He showed me all his journals and maps, and he actually constructed his own language awhile back and he can speak it fluently! I was amazed that I knew someone not online that went through the same I did!

Another case was a couple years back on a backpacking trip, my friend told me his entire DD plotline, (which was incredibly intense and awesome, basically Star…

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 A few years ago I "broke-down" crying to my mom, telling her how  I hated myself, how terrible things were for me and how at that point in time I didn't want to live anymore. She completely blew me off. It took a lot of time for me to build up the confidence to do so, so you can imagine the damage it did when my efforts were not at all reciprocated by an appropriate response. She would tell me things are going to be okay, that I should calm down, and then she would get frustrated and yell…

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I'm curious if anyone else experiences these symptoms.

1. Impatience

(When dealing with people, and the rules of the world. I find myself rushing people to finish what they're saying. I sometimes finish their sentences for them. I just don't feel like waiting for people to talk, take action or whatever it is they're doing)

2. Psychic or 6th Sense. A supreme feeling of being smarter than "normal" people. Premonitions, predictions,…

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(This is a story that I lost interest in halfway through, and it vividly depicts life in one city from my DD. Share your own work and critique mine! :D)

                The graffiti on the side of the graying depilated brick office complex…

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Hi there,

about 3 months ago somebody mentioned ADD to me, I read about it and discovered I had every trait associated with it except for one: often being too late at appointments. It still does happen to me that I forget about one, but it's rare. Here are the other traits:

-concentration problems

-motivation problems

-being dreamy or thinking a lot

-(therefore) being more passive

-trouble making choices

All these things are…

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(General Caesar North, the last real hope for restoring the Union)

My daydream's plot is getting more and more complex. I've added over 20 new minor and maybe major characters to the current events going on in the Western Union.

(These…

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So my day dream is my gf, i lost in most of time in dreaming about my gf ,we are in long distance relationship, and this year we are going to marry.



I either think about future ,and think like their is movie going in my mind,



Or i think about past , the time we spend together

I miss her badly ,so i most of time lost in dreaming about her.



Guys please sugggest me to stop thinking about her or any thing, i just want to empty my mind , there are lots of… Continue

I was given the number 15.  Like and/or comment on my status, and I will give you a number. Here are 15 little-known and/or "interesting" things about me: 

1) I've spent most of my life in a fantasy world, which has given me a unique perspective on life.

2) I have 9 tattoos and plan to get more. I have my cats' portraits tattooed on my arms.

3)I've almost died multiple times, and my friend and apartment manager both saved my life when…

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My most recent daydreams have been permeated by this country called the Western Union, formed over 1000 years after the fall of the United States by a Kennedian merchant who wanted a "wall" between the FSK and the unknown west. The merchant brought together over 30 small republics and tribes in the North American Great Plains region to form a long and narrow nation whos…

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The show is called WireTap.  It will air in Canada this weekend and in the US in a few months.

In the meantime, you can check out the episode online.  The episode is about the ideal self.  My portion is 6-7 minutes long.  I spoke to them for waaaay longer, but the portion they kept is really well-done.  They were so nice and fun to talk to.  

Have a listen, and feel free to share it with anyone you want!…

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Its been a while since I've been on here, so hello again!

Things have gone way downhill for me, my life is a mess. I am behind on everything and worst thing is I'm not panicked when I should be. I can't bring myself to do school work or attend to any of my obligations (even the ones I love). For the past two months I've literally been wasting away -  and just getting by. I'm really struggling, MD anxiety everything, I barely got my college applications in on time, I couldn't bring…

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At this stage I would now never stop daydreaming. In last one yr so much has changed in my life. From house to ppl I live with and my lifestyle. The things which I once had have all gone now. (and all these small changes do affect us MDers to a great extent.....right?) So basically I cant call anything in life as Mine. All the things(both small objects to big ppl) I was once emotionally attached to have gone except my daydreams and the character in my dream. They support me every now and then.… Continue

I already stopped counting how many times I pushed the 'Add Blog Post' button.  I must have produced thousand words so far; they disappeared as soon as they appeared, those cripple words which my thoughts did not want to embody, and which, therefore, my fingers mercilessly erased. I have never liked the beginnings, those first steps, first words which have never been truly first. 

Anyway.

Since I can remember I have never been alone.

Since I can remember I have…

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Hi all,

I was wondering what your best ways to handle MD in your day to day lives are?

I am struggling to minimise my daydreaming and I do not want it to take over my life.

It can help and be a source of creativity, comfort and escape but I would like to hear some

suggestions of how to fantasize less so I can enjoy the moments and people around me, if you have any...

Thanks guys and have a good day! :)

Unfortunately, when I told my therapist about my daydreams more likely to be a second life in my mind, she didn't take me serious. She simply passed on to another topic. But I think I have to explain things further next time, e.g. crying when my main character experiences some bad stuff, laughing and even talking to myself while daydreaming. I will print out some information about MD and show my therapist.

Sometimes I am in control of my MD but as soon as I play one video game (since…

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(this  is a rough sketch of Amanda Prophet, one of my most interesting characters.)

When I daydream, some times I make up weird or eccentric people. The girl pictured above, Amanda Prophet, is no exception. Her story begins right when the massive disease hits, (go back to my other posts to learn more) when she loots this empty house for…

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