Mara's Posts - Wild Minds network2024-03-28T13:18:44ZMarahttps://wildminds.ning.com/profile/Mara710https://storage.ning.com/topology/rest/1.0/file/get/8121826900?profile=RESIZE_180x180&width=48&height=48&crop=1%3A1https://wildminds.ning.com/profiles/blog/feed?user=3jx88yerj7138&xn_auth=noCompulsive DAYMARES anybody?tag:wildminds.ning.com,2020-12-07:4661400:BlogPost:3777072020-12-07T16:00:00.000ZMarahttps://wildminds.ning.com/profile/Mara710
<p>Hi all, </p>
<p>I want to tell you about my experience with MD, because I don't recognize myself in most accounts of it, and I want to see if someone else can relate with my own account.</p>
<p>First difference between my experience and the descriptions I find online: the content of my daydreams is NOT positive. It's always negative. I call them "<strong>daymares</strong>": plots usually involve a loved person dying, or me or someone else being sick, and other catastrophes of some type. It's…</p>
<p>Hi all, </p>
<p>I want to tell you about my experience with MD, because I don't recognize myself in most accounts of it, and I want to see if someone else can relate with my own account.</p>
<p>First difference between my experience and the descriptions I find online: the content of my daydreams is NOT positive. It's always negative. I call them "<strong>daymares</strong>": plots usually involve a loved person dying, or me or someone else being sick, and other catastrophes of some type. It's as if my mind had flashbacks, but with (usually a lot of) added imagination. And a different outcome, of course. </p>
<p>The second difference is that my MD *purely* feels like a compulsion, or an addiction – it's something that I end up doing, because I kind of "have to", but <strong>completely against my will</strong>. I don't enjoy it in any way, let alone would I try to trigger it with music or anything else. </p>
<p>The third difference is that I have the impression that I <strong>act out</strong> my daydreams (daymares) WAY more than other people. I act them out completely, talking, moving, making gestures and expressions, crying, jumping and running if necessary – just as if I was there. Nonetheless, and even if I get very absorbed, I can always distinguish between fiction and reality - at worst, if I stop abruptly, I get a bit dissociated. </p>
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<p>Does anybody else live MD in a similar way?? It feels so lonely to read so many accounts and descriptions (even in research) that don't correspond to what I live. </p>