LeAnn Marcum's Posts - Wild Minds network2024-03-29T05:53:26ZLeAnn Marcumhttps://wildminds.ning.com/profile/LeAnnMarcumhttps://storage.ning.com/topology/rest/1.0/file/get/3145241505?profile=RESIZE_48X48&width=48&height=48&crop=1%3A1https://wildminds.ning.com/profiles/blog/feed?user=36acwk1r0755d&xn_auth=noMy disorder behind MD.tag:wildminds.ning.com,2013-01-04:4661400:BlogPost:1211032013-01-04T20:01:20.000ZLeAnn Marcumhttps://wildminds.ning.com/profile/LeAnnMarcum
<p> I finally realized that my MD is about being a hero and rescuing others in their time of need. But my MD wasn't the cause of it, it was a reflection. In my daydreams, I rescued the one I admired from her boyfriend who broke her heart. In reality, I lived through her problems and was constantly worried about trying to 'fix' her and be her hero like I did in my dreams. I now discovered that I have Co-dependency. In my dreams I COULD be a hero, and be admired for it and be shown gratitude. But…</p>
<p> I finally realized that my MD is about being a hero and rescuing others in their time of need. But my MD wasn't the cause of it, it was a reflection. In my daydreams, I rescued the one I admired from her boyfriend who broke her heart. In reality, I lived through her problems and was constantly worried about trying to 'fix' her and be her hero like I did in my dreams. I now discovered that I have Co-dependency. In my dreams I COULD be a hero, and be admired for it and be shown gratitude. But in the real world, I am controlling. It's amazing how much your dreams can tell about you, and I haven't realized it until now.</p>MD is a choice.tag:wildminds.ning.com,2013-01-04:4661400:BlogPost:1207742013-01-04T00:57:50.000ZLeAnn Marcumhttps://wildminds.ning.com/profile/LeAnnMarcum
<p><span>Be careful what you think, for your thoughts become your words.</span><br></br><span>Be careful what you say, for your words become your actions.</span><br></br><span>Be careful what you do, for your actions become your habits.</span><br></br><span>Be careful what becomes habitual, for your habits become your destiny.</span></p>
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<p><span> Thanks to EludeMyFantasies, I have finally realized what I've been searching for. MD is a choice just like any other habit. It's just a very thick mist…</span></p>
<p><span>Be careful what you think, for your thoughts become your words.</span><br/><span>Be careful what you say, for your words become your actions.</span><br/><span>Be careful what you do, for your actions become your habits.</span><br/><span>Be careful what becomes habitual, for your habits become your destiny.</span></p>
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<p><span> Thanks to EludeMyFantasies, I have finally realized what I've been searching for. MD is a choice just like any other habit. It's just a very thick mist like any other disorder that keeps us from seeing reality the way it is. An illusion. If we just put our minds to it, we can get past the mist. It's entirely mental. Research the steps you need to take to stop daydreaming and focus on reality where you really belong where you can make REAL friends and REAL dreams/goals. You will never be able to do those things if you keep dreaming about them. If you wait for the perfect time to do something, you'll never get it done. Thanks again, EludeMyFantasies!</span></p>
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<p><strong>The Sucker Punch’s last words</strong></p>
<p>and finally this question:</p>
<p>the mystery of whose story it will be<br/>of who draws the curtain<br/>who is it that chooses our in the dance<br/>who drives us mad<br/>lashes us with whips<br/>and crowns us with victory when we survive the impossible<br/>who is it<br/>that does all these things?<br/>who honors those we love with very life we live?<br/>who sends monsters to kill us<br/>and at the same time sings that we’ll never die?<br/>who teaches us what’s real and how to laugh at lies?<br/>who decides why we live and what we’ll die to defend?<br/>who chains us?<br/>who holds the key that can set us free?</p>
<p>it’s you<br/>You have all the weapons you need<br/>NOW FIGHT!</p>True believer (and how my MD stopped)tag:wildminds.ning.com,2013-01-02:4661400:BlogPost:1206972013-01-02T16:55:01.000ZLeAnn Marcumhttps://wildminds.ning.com/profile/LeAnnMarcum
<p> When I was in 8th grade, I had a dream that I wanted to write a book about an adventure that really happened to me. I wanted to awe people and make them say "Wow! This was real? I thought it was fiction!" So in order to do that, I chose people from the real world (my classmates) and started to plan my story and how it would go. I truly believed it was going to somehow come true. I dreamed of my buddies (my classmates who I never even talked to) and I were going to join up as a group when I…</p>
<p> When I was in 8th grade, I had a dream that I wanted to write a book about an adventure that really happened to me. I wanted to awe people and make them say "Wow! This was real? I thought it was fiction!" So in order to do that, I chose people from the real world (my classmates) and started to plan my story and how it would go. I truly believed it was going to somehow come true. I dreamed of my buddies (my classmates who I never even talked to) and I were going to join up as a group when I turned 15, and we would fight battles together like in the anime where I got my story idea from. I created an idealized form of myself, black hair, wearing black pants and a white button up shirt. And my weapon was a sword. Only when my dreams began to decease when we graduated and we went to high school, when me and the people who were in my fantasies were split up. I then accepted that it wasn't going to go the way I had planned. But I suffered mentally and emotionally afterwards, now having anxiety and depression, and was trying to adapt to the real world.</p>When you are DDing do you think it will someday come true?tag:wildminds.ning.com,2013-01-01:4661400:BlogPost:1205742013-01-01T18:14:17.000ZLeAnn Marcumhttps://wildminds.ning.com/profile/LeAnnMarcum
<p> When I had my biggest episode of MD for a year and a half, I sunk so deep in it that I actually started to believe it was going to come true. I thought I was crazy.</p>
<p> When I had my biggest episode of MD for a year and a half, I sunk so deep in it that I actually started to believe it was going to come true. I thought I was crazy.</p>What are your new year resolutions?tag:wildminds.ning.com,2012-12-31:4661400:BlogPost:1203502012-12-31T15:36:52.000ZLeAnn Marcumhttps://wildminds.ning.com/profile/LeAnnMarcum
<p> A good way to become more in control of your MD is to set goals for yourself to think about and help you stay more focused on reality. Have you made any?</p>
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<p> Mine are:</p>
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<p> 1) Start exercising</p>
<p> 2) Start writing a book (about my MD)</p>
<p> 3) Spend more time with family</p>
<p> 4) Get first job</p>
<p> 5) Be the best girlfriend I can be :-)</p>
<p> A good way to become more in control of your MD is to set goals for yourself to think about and help you stay more focused on reality. Have you made any?</p>
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<p> Mine are:</p>
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<p> 1) Start exercising</p>
<p> 2) Start writing a book (about my MD)</p>
<p> 3) Spend more time with family</p>
<p> 4) Get first job</p>
<p> 5) Be the best girlfriend I can be :-)</p>Planning on writing a book about my MD experience and need support!tag:wildminds.ning.com,2012-12-30:4661400:BlogPost:1203252012-12-30T17:25:03.000ZLeAnn Marcumhttps://wildminds.ning.com/profile/LeAnnMarcum
<p> I've been thinking about writing a book about my MD experience to inspire others with the disorder, the obsession, the anxiety, and letting it consume my life to the point of my doctor recommending to my mom to send me to the behavioral health center. It really screwed me up.</p>
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<p> Now the idea of writing about it keeps popping back into my head, but I keep retreating back to the reality I live in now, for the fear of letting it take over me again. Much support is appreciated.…</p>
<p> I've been thinking about writing a book about my MD experience to inspire others with the disorder, the obsession, the anxiety, and letting it consume my life to the point of my doctor recommending to my mom to send me to the behavioral health center. It really screwed me up.</p>
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<p> Now the idea of writing about it keeps popping back into my head, but I keep retreating back to the reality I live in now, for the fear of letting it take over me again. Much support is appreciated. Thanks! <3</p>Can MD also be related to Limerence?tag:wildminds.ning.com,2012-12-29:4661400:BlogPost:1201782012-12-29T17:17:53.000ZLeAnn Marcumhttps://wildminds.ning.com/profile/LeAnnMarcum
<p>Limerence is when you become so obsessed with somebody that you start to constantly fantasize about them, like saving them from a crisis and being a hero; or at least in my experience. So can MD be related to that?</p>
<p>Limerence is when you become so obsessed with somebody that you start to constantly fantasize about them, like saving them from a crisis and being a hero; or at least in my experience. So can MD be related to that?</p>Has any of your DD characters ever been of a real person?tag:wildminds.ning.com,2012-12-15:4661400:BlogPost:1187132012-12-15T14:42:29.000ZLeAnn Marcumhttps://wildminds.ning.com/profile/LeAnnMarcum
<p> I used to DD about a girl who I admired and it made me become obsessed with her. Has this happened to anyone else?</p>
<p> I used to DD about a girl who I admired and it made me become obsessed with her. Has this happened to anyone else?</p>