Harley Penguin's Posts - Wild Minds network2024-03-29T08:19:13ZHarley Penguinhttps://wildminds.ning.com/profile/ErinMaehttps://storage.ning.com/topology/rest/1.0/file/get/3145247691?profile=RESIZE_48X48&width=48&height=48&crop=1%3A1https://wildminds.ning.com/profiles/blog/feed?user=1qjtmcll6obi6&xn_auth=noLife and all..tag:wildminds.ning.com,2016-03-19:4661400:BlogPost:2262452016-03-19T22:14:56.000ZHarley Penguinhttps://wildminds.ning.com/profile/ErinMae
<p>It's been probably at least a year that I've been logged in. I have been struggling so bad with life lately. I have three teenage children, who I solely am responsible for, and I can't keep a job for the life of me. Over the last two years I've quit 6 jobs within the first few weeks due to anxiety, and the want to stay home and daydream. I have also been diagnosed with agoraphobia by my PCP, with panic disorder as well. I don't know if anxiety, and MD goes hand in hand, but both have been…</p>
<p>It's been probably at least a year that I've been logged in. I have been struggling so bad with life lately. I have three teenage children, who I solely am responsible for, and I can't keep a job for the life of me. Over the last two years I've quit 6 jobs within the first few weeks due to anxiety, and the want to stay home and daydream. I have also been diagnosed with agoraphobia by my PCP, with panic disorder as well. I don't know if anxiety, and MD goes hand in hand, but both have been getting worse lately. I see a Psychiatrist this week, but I am so reluctant to mention my MD, because I know some therapists don't even recognize it as a real disorder. I want to know if there is a certain specific treatment for MD. As much as it disrupts my life, I've been a little upset lately. My doctor has started me on a new medication for my anxiety, and I feel my creative (mostly MD) side has diminished almost completely. Before the new med, I would write and be very artistic, but now, I have no real creativity to me anymore, and it saddens me. Do you have to sacrifice a piece of yourself to gain a bit of sanity? I feel as if it's an unfair trade off, not that the new meds are helping a heck of a lot with my anxiety. I've come to a point in my life where I don't know what I am going to do anymore. I can't provide for my family anymore, and I know it's going to take at least a year to get disability, if I even can.. I want to be "normal" when it comes to being able to work, and be a productive member of society, but, I also want the unique and creative side of myself too. I'm not sure where I'll go from here, but it's a scary and dangerous voyage.</p>All my life.tag:wildminds.ning.com,2013-12-05:4661400:BlogPost:1657392013-12-05T01:41:55.000ZHarley Penguinhttps://wildminds.ning.com/profile/ErinMae
First of all, I'm so glad that this site exists. For many many years, I thought I was psychotic, or schizophrenic. I've always wondered what was wrong with me. As far back as I remember, I have had wild fantasies, daydreams, and found myself in love with fictional, cartoon, or anime characters. I learned to hide my behavior, and used to retreat to my room, where I could shake my chains, or shoe laces or anything that felt right to shake, according to my fantasy. I've always imagined myself…
First of all, I'm so glad that this site exists. For many many years, I thought I was psychotic, or schizophrenic. I've always wondered what was wrong with me. As far back as I remember, I have had wild fantasies, daydreams, and found myself in love with fictional, cartoon, or anime characters. I learned to hide my behavior, and used to retreat to my room, where I could shake my chains, or shoe laces or anything that felt right to shake, according to my fantasy. I've always imagined myself being young, perfect, beautiful, the envy of everyone, with whatever Guy I was in love with at the time. At the moment I'm all about the Inuyasha character as seen on my avatar. I love music, I can imagine so much better with the aid of certain songs. I am 35 have three children and still live in the fantasies of my mind. I tell no one for fear of ridicule. Unlike what I've seen others report, I have had a fulfilling and decent social life, and even now am quite popular with other people. Though the older I get, the more reclusive I have become, and with the internet in my life, I find I use it yo further my obsessions and daydreams. I am just so glad I finally discovered I am not alone, and that there is some place for me too. Thank you for accepting me into your community.