LostSoul99's Posts - Wild Minds network2024-03-28T18:55:10ZLostSoul99https://wildminds.ning.com/profile/AutrociousBhttps://storage.ning.com/topology/rest/1.0/file/get/3145237511?profile=RESIZE_48X48&width=48&height=48&crop=1%3A1https://wildminds.ning.com/profiles/blog/feed?user=0qer9qrof40lh&xn_auth=noHow do you cope with maladaptive daydreaming?tag:wildminds.ning.com,2014-03-29:4661400:BlogPost:1778152014-03-29T00:01:37.000ZLostSoul99https://wildminds.ning.com/profile/AutrociousB
<p>So here's the thing. I used to love maladaptive daydreaming because it gave me a safer happier world to rely on. But now I realized, I could've had so much more in life if I didn't spend hours and hours daydreaming. If I'm not listening to music and pacing in the room, I'm zoning out during study time and engaging in scene playing in my head. Either that or I allow myself to sleep for a period of thirty minutes just so I could engage in some sort of fantasy in my head which then turns into 2…</p>
<p>So here's the thing. I used to love maladaptive daydreaming because it gave me a safer happier world to rely on. But now I realized, I could've had so much more in life if I didn't spend hours and hours daydreaming. If I'm not listening to music and pacing in the room, I'm zoning out during study time and engaging in scene playing in my head. Either that or I allow myself to sleep for a period of thirty minutes just so I could engage in some sort of fantasy in my head which then turns into 2 hours. The thing is now that I'm in grade 12, I've realized that I've just somehow managed to get acceptable grades and managed to get into some university programs that I applied to. But now I have to keep my grades up and I have all sciences and a hard teacher this semester and I need an 85+ average. I can't fly my way through this semester and I definitely cannot fly my way through university. Any suggestions on how you kept focus through out university/high school while also suffering from maladaptive daydreaming? Sometimes even the thought of being with a textbook in an isolated room makes me depressed. I don't know what I'll do. I also want to lose some pounds before university but I can't get myself to work out. The thing is, I have a good plan, I have every resource possible for me to reach my goals but it's just I have poor time management skills and maladaptive daydreaming! :(</p>School and Work?tag:wildminds.ning.com,2013-11-17:4661400:BlogPost:1631972013-11-17T02:14:31.000ZLostSoul99https://wildminds.ning.com/profile/AutrociousB
<p>I'm currently in grade 12 and I have to balance my DD life with studying. My mom's telling me to get a job to work part time on the weekends. I've had a job before but it was only in the summer where I didn't have to balance DDing with studying. Although that job was everyday, it was only for a few hours and I didn't have to constantly socialize with coworkers and deal with custormers(I worked with kids). In this current job, I'll be a cashier, I'm not sure how many hours I'll have to work…</p>
<p>I'm currently in grade 12 and I have to balance my DD life with studying. My mom's telling me to get a job to work part time on the weekends. I've had a job before but it was only in the summer where I didn't have to balance DDing with studying. Although that job was everyday, it was only for a few hours and I didn't have to constantly socialize with coworkers and deal with custormers(I worked with kids). In this current job, I'll be a cashier, I'm not sure how many hours I'll have to work but along with MD I have social anxiety. I often don't even like being around friends. Although I like hanging out with them once in a while but I'll have to recharge right after. I'm scared doing this job will trigger my social anxiety and will take away my DD time. And as a result I may not do that well in school either. If I choose not to do it however, I'll feel unproductive and feel like I'm not contributing to my mom enough. Any advice?</p>Empaths, Indigo/Crystal person, fantasy proneness.tag:wildminds.ning.com,2013-09-29:4661400:BlogPost:1581902013-09-29T05:45:05.000ZLostSoul99https://wildminds.ning.com/profile/AutrociousB
<p>A few months ago. I was researching more about the Highly Sensitive Person. I came upon a term called the Empath. And I think the empath completely describes this "illness" and us maladaptive daydreamers. Of course that doesn't apply to everyone here. But a lot of us, from seeing other posts have described themselves to be creative, empathetic, perhaps a little socially awkward and likes to be alone. Empaths also love to dayream. So do think about whether you are an Empath. </p>
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<p>A few months ago. I was researching more about the Highly Sensitive Person. I came upon a term called the Empath. And I think the empath completely describes this "illness" and us maladaptive daydreamers. Of course that doesn't apply to everyone here. But a lot of us, from seeing other posts have described themselves to be creative, empathetic, perhaps a little socially awkward and likes to be alone. Empaths also love to dayream. So do think about whether you are an Empath. </p>
<p>These are the traits of an Empath</p>
<p><a href="http://theknowing1.wordpress.com/2011/07/01/at-a-glance-30-traits-of-an-empath/">http://theknowing1.wordpress.com/2011/07/01/at-a-glance-30-traits-of-an-empath/</a></p>
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<p>Antoher thing I wanted to discuss were indigo/christal children. I was watching conspiracy theory videos about aliens/fallen angels and so on and so forth. Not saying I believe in these things. But like I know a lot of maladaptive daydreamers, I am interested in the paranormal and how people think. Anyways, my point was that this man was discussing how a lot of people have started to report "alien abductions " during this era. Anyways, I remember a long time ago, I remember looking up the fantasy prone personality. One of their characteristics is that they feel like they have been abducted by aliens or have seen "spirits" or creatures form outer space. </p>
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<p><strong><a href="http://www.csicop.org/si/show/study_of_fantasy_proneness_in_the_thirteen_cases_of_alleged_encounters_in_j/">http://www.csicop.org/si/show/study_of_fantasy_proneness_in_the_thirteen_cases_of_alleged_encounters_in_j/</a></strong></p>
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<p>Anyways, I know I'm including too much information at once. We don't have fantasy prone personalities but we do have maladaptive daydreaming which is very related to all of this so what do you think?</p>
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<p>As I continued watching the conspiracy theory video, they mentioned indigo children. Anyways, I stopped the video and went to look up this type of person myself. I will finish this video later to see how the indigo/crystal person relates to what the man in the video is trying to say. Much of the indigo person's description does fit the "maladaptive daydreamer," the "empath" or even the "highly sensitive person." The indigo child/adult has an indigo aura. They are intelligent but don't always get good grades because they have short attention spans and are easily bored. They don't like rules and regulations and often rebel against authority figures or DREAM about doing it. They usually are diagnosed with A.D.D or A.D.H.D and we all know that a lot of maladaptive daydreamers not only have short attention spans but exhibit some symptoms of ADD or ADHD. Anyways, they're also very creative, and intuitive. A lot of them are quiet and have a hard time expressing themselves, may not speak too often(a lot of us are socially awkward) and may be very telepathic especially as a child. So here somes the interesting part. So some people think that indigo children is what will evolve humanity to it's next phase where communication will be through other means other than verbal communication. Thus the reason why they are so quiet, and introverted. Not saying this is true but it's something to think about right? </p>
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<p>But what I found most interesting was when I read the description for crystal children. I use the term Indigo because most crystal children are from 0-7 years of age and become Indigos later on. So here's a quote from a website. </p>
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<p>"Crystal Children’s heart chakra is wide open. <strong>They are very sensitive and empathetic. Because of this heightened sensitivity, they constantly need love and protection. In dysfunctional relationships and environments, these children would shut down and often daydream, they withdraw and isolate themselves from the world.</strong> In these cases, they survive in silence but carrying much of their pains and others; until they no longer cope and begin to manifest physical or emotional illnesses in themselves. </p>
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<p><a href="http://thepyramidoflight.com/articles/?p=7">http://thepyramidoflight.com/articles/?p=7</a></p>
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<p>Seems familiar anyone? Doesn't it seem like the absolute description of what we call maladaptive daydreaming? So comment and tell me your opinion. Not telling you to believe everything, I myself don't. Also not saying that I'm promoting that we're more special than other people. But just sharing an interesting theory that I found on the internet. So tell me what you think. </p>
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<p>Here's the one of the self-tests for you to see whether you may be an indigo person. There are many more if you look it up on google. </p>
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<p><a href="http://www.selectsmart.com/FREE/select.php?client=indigochildren">http://www.selectsmart.com/FREE/select.php?client=indigochildren</a></p>
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<p>Here's more information about what indigo children is. </p>
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<p><a href="http://starchildglobal.com/starchild/what.html">http://starchildglobal.com/starchild/what.html</a></p>
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<p>And greyartist, if you do read this and find this interesting, perhaps this topic can be used as one of your blogtalkradio epidodes? I would like to learn more and see other people's opinions and research too. </p>Was theraphy right for you?tag:wildminds.ning.com,2013-06-26:4661400:BlogPost:1455092013-06-26T22:20:02.000ZLostSoul99https://wildminds.ning.com/profile/AutrociousB
<p>I've never been theraphy before. The only thing that I've done is see a social worker which I stopped going to after she reccomended me to theraphy which I never went to because I wanted to focus on school. Thing with me is, I get good grades and I usually have an over 80 average but this semester I just lost motivation after getting a 70 in math last semester so I started off very badly, I didn't have the motivation nor the desire to do well. I skipped classes, I couldn't concentrate during…</p>
<p>I've never been theraphy before. The only thing that I've done is see a social worker which I stopped going to after she reccomended me to theraphy which I never went to because I wanted to focus on school. Thing with me is, I get good grades and I usually have an over 80 average but this semester I just lost motivation after getting a 70 in math last semester so I started off very badly, I didn't have the motivation nor the desire to do well. I skipped classes, I couldn't concentrate during classes, I came to school late and my average for this semester is a flat 74% that too with courses that were easier than last semester except for physics. And all of you know how hard it is to balance grades with MD. MD has also been one of the reasons I did so badly and so has this internet addiction that I have produced. I look up everything I'm curious about. I write fanfiction, I watch videos(I'm interested in various topics, I'm the most curious person you'll find), I debate in forums, and then there's fb, shows I watch. I swear to god I have an internet addiction. It's ridiculous and my MD has also gotten worse. Anyways, I have a friend that goes to theraphy and she says it really helps. I was thinking about going this summer but I have no idea what to expect.</p>
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<p>So I have a few questions. I'm sorry this is going to be long. So how were all of your experiences with your therapists? Did you go because you wanted to or you felt that you needed help or did you go because you had to? Were you able to tell your psychologist/theraphist about MD? And let's say I choose to tell my therapist about MD, would she reccomend I go to a psychologist because she would think that I have a comepletely different illness than MD like Adhd, or schrizo, bipolar, OCD and a lot of the illnesses that I've heard people say they've been labeled by their psychologist? Should I even talk about my MD, my social anxiety and my other issues to my theraphist as she's not a psychologist and may not be able to handle me properly? Has there ever been any time when your theraphy has had a negative effect on you. For example, lower your self esteem because your therapist doesn't understand you so you build more walls up and you feel as if nobody in this can understand you and relate to your problems? Or has theraphy made you depressed about a memory of a traumatic event that you were happy about forgetting? And what are the benefits that you experienced from theraphy?</p>Daydreaming about characters I feel sorry for.tag:wildminds.ning.com,2013-06-08:4661400:BlogPost:1431812013-06-08T22:49:41.000ZLostSoul99https://wildminds.ning.com/profile/AutrociousB
<p>Hey, I was observing my daydreams and I've noticed a pattern. A lot of my daydreams include characters from books or tv shows that I feel intensely sorry for. They are usually victims of some sort and I daydream about enpowering them. My recent character that I daydream is about an adopted girl that had made many sacrifices for her family. She's a very kind-hearted, selfless girl but her foster family always mistreats her. They treat her differently from their biological kids. It's pretty…</p>
<p>Hey, I was observing my daydreams and I've noticed a pattern. A lot of my daydreams include characters from books or tv shows that I feel intensely sorry for. They are usually victims of some sort and I daydream about enpowering them. My recent character that I daydream is about an adopted girl that had made many sacrifices for her family. She's a very kind-hearted, selfless girl but her foster family always mistreats her. They treat her differently from their biological kids. It's pretty sad. I daydream of her leaving home, making a living for herself independantly, becoming a successful businesswoman and finding a man that makes her stronger as a person. Can anyone else relate?</p>Lifetag:wildminds.ning.com,2013-06-03:4661400:BlogPost:1425342013-06-03T01:31:27.000ZLostSoul99https://wildminds.ning.com/profile/AutrociousB
<p>Hey Everyone, I haven't been on here for a long time but I've been having some deep thoughts so I was just wondering if many of you feel the same way. Do you guys ever feel as if your entire life is fake? I feel like the only place of comfort is in my own room. I go to the grocery store, I feel insecure. I feel like everyone's watching me but somehow I pull myself out of that feeling of insecurity. I feel like I can't be my true self with anybody. Nobody truly knows me. They only know the a…</p>
<p>Hey Everyone, I haven't been on here for a long time but I've been having some deep thoughts so I was just wondering if many of you feel the same way. Do you guys ever feel as if your entire life is fake? I feel like the only place of comfort is in my own room. I go to the grocery store, I feel insecure. I feel like everyone's watching me but somehow I pull myself out of that feeling of insecurity. I feel like I can't be my true self with anybody. Nobody truly knows me. They only know the a few bits and parts that make me. They think I'm a "simple", quiet, "innocent" girl but not many people know how much of a complex person I am. I don't have many people to share my feelings or thoughts with. Sure I can be my silly self with my mom at times, but I can't tell her everything. And as for my friends, I feel so detached from them. They say if you truly care for someone, you will make time for them. It shouldn't be an obligation. But with me, it's always somehow been a chore. I always find every excuse in the book to avoid having sleep overs because I just can't stand to be or live around other people. I'm an only child living with a single mother by the way. Sure I care for my friends but can I be myself with them at my full ability? I can't. I will be happy every day, because I go to school, come home and do whatever I want in my room and most of the time that includes studying or daydreaming, writing, or looking stuff up in the internet(I'm a very curious person). My mom never forces me to do chores because she knows I have the poorest time management skills. But just the moment, I'm put in a social situation for a little too long, all my insecurities, my past, bad memories all seem to come back. I'll think so negatively that it's like these situations literally drain me and make me feel like shit. If I'm in a social situation with too many people for too long, I will come home feeling like shit. It's like there are some bad memories that I have which I don't think about ever but the moment I'm placed in a social situation, it's like reality hits me. I'm so vulnerable. And I've noticed this about myself. I tend to build a larger exterior wall around me for everytime someone says something hurtful to me. And it's ridiculous.</p>
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<p>Sometimes, let's say I'm doing something with a friend and she criticizes me on something that I did. Next time, we do the same exact task, I'll avoid doing it or simply let her do it even if I know I can do it well. I know I am an HSP(highly sensitive person). We tend to underperform in front of people. But I absolutely hate it. </p>
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<p>My maladaptive daydreaming is also getting in the way of my school. I used to get amazing grades but my grades aren't as good as they were last year. I never want to go to bed on time and I never want to go to school. And I've produced a habit of going to school late all the time and I hate it. I just don't like doing anything anymore. My head is not in my work.</p>
<p>And I don't know. Life just sucks. This week was the prom for the grade twelves. And I was actually thinking about how my prom will be next year. I just feel like prom will be a wreck for me. It would be another situation where I realize that I'm a failure. I know I'll feel inferior and feel as if everyone's united, having fun, had great four years of high school, made friends, was known, had fun while it lasted except for me. That's how I feel every year on my birthday. I always feel like another year has passed me by and I wasted it and I have absolutely nothing to be proud of. In my daydreams I have this idealized version of myself and she's nothing like who I am in real life. I'm getting older and older but I don't know if I'll ever be her. I wish one day, I get as confident, beautiful, and strong as her. I just don't know when that day will come. </p>Daydreams and Realitytag:wildminds.ning.com,2013-04-11:4661400:BlogPost:1351362013-04-11T22:07:56.000ZLostSoul99https://wildminds.ning.com/profile/AutrociousB
<p>I'm a completely different person in real life than I am in my daydreams. I do things I want to do but would absolutely never do in real life. I imagine my life turn out to be something that'll not only make me upset if my life turned out this way, but also my mom and my friends. I dream about partying, smoking, stealing, being with bad guys, and just being wild and having fun. In real life, I would never do the things I daydream about. But when I grow up, have more control over my life,…</p>
<p>I'm a completely different person in real life than I am in my daydreams. I do things I want to do but would absolutely never do in real life. I imagine my life turn out to be something that'll not only make me upset if my life turned out this way, but also my mom and my friends. I dream about partying, smoking, stealing, being with bad guys, and just being wild and having fun. In real life, I would never do the things I daydream about. But when I grow up, have more control over my life, have less things holding me back, will I be more prone to such a lifestyle that I imagine in my daydreams? Has the person you were in your daydreams ever come out in reality? Have any of you ever lived your daydreams? Do you think the person you see in your daydreams is who you really are but because of your low self-esteem, you're too scared to show it?</p>
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<p>Another thing I'd like to discuss is a few days ago, I saw one of the members post something about Bipolar and MD. I wouldn't say I have bipolar. But my mood sometimes is dependant on the weather. I notice that whenever it's raining or cloudy, I'll feel depressed for no reason. At times, I'll be depressed for absolutely no reason despite what weather it is outside and I'll try to think about a reason why I feel so shitty. I'd ask myself whether it was a thought in my head that made me so upset but most of the time during these phases, I'll never figure it out. At times I'll be anxious for no reason and my heart rate would increase. Has anyone else experienced that? Do you think that's a form of bipolar? Of course the times that I do have my daydreams, I am extrememly happy. </p>IQ and MD.tag:wildminds.ning.com,2013-03-21:4661400:BlogPost:1317432013-03-21T21:32:48.000ZLostSoul99https://wildminds.ning.com/profile/AutrociousB
<p>Hey, I was wondering if there was a link between MD and IQ. Since I'm always looking up things about psychology, I looked up characteristics that are often associated with having a high IQ. I've never taken an IQ test and the one I did only had 10 questions which I got a 9/10 on but still I don't think a small online test like that can really tell me my IQ. Anyways, I was looking at characteristics of "gifted" or people with high IQs. And I found that a lot of the characteristics applied to…</p>
<p>Hey, I was wondering if there was a link between MD and IQ. Since I'm always looking up things about psychology, I looked up characteristics that are often associated with having a high IQ. I've never taken an IQ test and the one I did only had 10 questions which I got a 9/10 on but still I don't think a small online test like that can really tell me my IQ. Anyways, I was looking at characteristics of "gifted" or people with high IQs. And I found that a lot of the characteristics applied to me or many of you guys. LIke for example Intelligent people have a higher curiosity, are sometimes socially awkward, have problems with anxiety, low moods, depression, are creative, and they have a vivid imagination. Many are also likely to be atheists And I'm not an atheist although I have questioned my religion before but I've met many individuals here that are. So What do you think, do you think our "disorder" is linked to having a brighter IQ?</p>Anxietytag:wildminds.ning.com,2013-03-03:4661400:BlogPost:1285262013-03-03T04:24:18.000ZLostSoul99https://wildminds.ning.com/profile/AutrociousB
<p>These days I realized that I've been feeling anxious and plain paranoid in situations that I shouldn't be feeling these things in the first place. I haven't hung out with one of my bestfriends for a long time since she does have a lot of work this semester. But today is my mom's birthday and yesterday last minute I planned to make cake for her and surprise her at 12. So I called my friend last minute, somehow convinced my mom to let me go at night to her house. And that's where I made the…</p>
<p>These days I realized that I've been feeling anxious and plain paranoid in situations that I shouldn't be feeling these things in the first place. I haven't hung out with one of my bestfriends for a long time since she does have a lot of work this semester. But today is my mom's birthday and yesterday last minute I planned to make cake for her and surprise her at 12. So I called my friend last minute, somehow convinced my mom to let me go at night to her house. And that's where I made the mistake. I should've just made cake on my own but I wanted to spend time with her too. But what happened yesterday was that I realized that I get anxious while doing things in front of people, I mess up, I fear even asking a simple question and I just get paranoid. That usually happens when I'm working with strong personalities, people who has judged me before, or people who I feel inferior to before as they can easily dominate me. I end up making myself look like a complete fool and in the end I feel so stupid. Like yesterday, although it was my mom's cake, my friend ended up doing most of the work and I just felt horrible. But I realized that I get completely anxious and paranoid in front of people and that shouldn't be the case with my closest friends. I should be more comfortable with her at least. Does that happen to any of you? I do indentify as a highly sensitive person and an HSP usually is way more careful and extremely cautious in front of people. But in my case, if I were ever an outsider looking at the way I act in certain situations, I would think I'm a retard. My anxiety is so bad that sometimes when me and my friends are reading something, I'd take a really long time to finish because a thousand thoughts occur in my head and I'll just be afraid of zoning out, not reading fast enough and make myself look like a total fool. I mean if I could I would change it, I personally think you should never care about what others will think about you but I can't. I'm self-conscious all the time. Even when I was little, I remember my friends and I used to skip(not with a skipping rope) and when one of them would ask me to skip, I wouldn't be able to do it. But when I was alone, I would do it perfectly. This goes for everything else as well. In school, I never finish any of my work. I always work on everything at home. Does this happen to any of you guys?</p>Okay, I'm actually freaking out. So there's this guy on youtube that I and many others have been arguing with. And he made multiple fake accounts to make it seem like there were a lot of people on hi…tag:wildminds.ning.com,2013-02-20:4661400:BlogPost:1270492013-02-20T00:03:37.000ZLostSoul99https://wildminds.ning.com/profile/AutrociousB
<p>Okay, I'm actually freaking out. So there's this guy on youtube that I and many others have been arguing with. And he made multiple fake accounts to make it seem like there were a lot of people on his side. And then I commented saying "I guess Multiple personalities wasn't as rare as I thought." He commented back saying "</p>
<p>"How about sex addiction and MD disorder? How rare are they?</p>
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<p>Okay, I'm actually freaking out. So there's this guy on youtube that I and many others have been arguing with. And he made multiple fake accounts to make it seem like there were a lot of people on his side. And then I commented saying "I guess Multiple personalities wasn't as rare as I thought." He commented back saying "</p>
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<p>Only the truly degenerate or those who have been traumatically traumatized by a perverted relative (eg their own father of brother) suffers from these nasty afflictions."</p>
<p>I got so scared that I looked at my youtube account for any videos that may be about maladaptive daydreaming but I didn't find any. Of course I don't have a sex addiction and I'm a virgin. But I'm logged in from my google account on youtube so do you think there is a way that he got to read what I search up on google. I'm not going to lie I have looked up on various disorders and one of them happened to be sex addiction. The other thing is I looked up on google right now what "MD disorder" is and apparently it's something else and maladaptive daydreaming didn't come up. But still I'm so scared right now. What should I do? Can you have access to what other people search and watch on youtube. I recently started using my youtube account so I don't know. </p>Phasestag:wildminds.ning.com,2013-02-13:4661400:BlogPost:1261792013-02-13T02:08:02.000ZLostSoul99https://wildminds.ning.com/profile/AutrociousB
<p>Along with MD, I've been noticing other things about me. For example, this has been going on ever since I was young. I would be obsessed with a certain topic for a month or two, and along with wasting my time daydreaming, I would spend hours researching about that topic. This phase will typically last for a month or more and at times my dds might also be based on this theme. The various topics that I've been obsessed with are psychology and different disorders especially MD, the…</p>
<p>Along with MD, I've been noticing other things about me. For example, this has been going on ever since I was young. I would be obsessed with a certain topic for a month or two, and along with wasting my time daydreaming, I would spend hours researching about that topic. This phase will typically last for a month or more and at times my dds might also be based on this theme. The various topics that I've been obsessed with are psychology and different disorders especially MD, the occult/illuminati, paranormal things, history such as the elizabethian times, at times different religions and cults, BDSM, and right now racism and the neo-nazi culture and all that. Those are just a few recent ones. Anyways, I also read a lot of fanfictions and if I do have any celebrities or tv show characters in my dds, I will also waste time trying to find out everything I can about them and watch as many youtube videos as I could about them. All of this prevents me from functioning properly. I will often find myself not getting enough sleep unless it's the weedend(then I oversleep because I would wake up, dd and fall back asleep) and going to classes late and I definitely don't do as much things as teenagers my age should be doing. I do get good grades but it's really hard to keep them up and I'm sure if I didn't have this, I would get really high grades. I'm not ADD because I don't think I have a problem paying attention at least not now. However, in middle school I was known as the "lost kid" and I did find it difficult to pay attention but that changed in high school. But I think when I don't pay attention, it's my anxiety, it doesn't really have to do with me having ADD. Does anyone else do what I do? I'm very curious about everything and I often find my mind wandering to all different places. </p>Correlation between drugs and Maladaptive Daydramingtag:wildminds.ning.com,2012-10-06:4661400:BlogPost:1036312012-10-06T17:57:30.000ZLostSoul99https://wildminds.ning.com/profile/AutrociousB
<p>As you've all noticed, I haven't come on this site in a long time. Well during the summer, I told my bestfriend about my MD and about this site. She was supportive towards my MD and she didn't think I was crazy. But she wasn't too fond of me coming on this site. She says that I should focus on reality and interacting with real people more. She thinks that I come on this site for comfort knowing that there are people like me. She argues that if she looks up her insecurities as well, she…</p>
<p>As you've all noticed, I haven't come on this site in a long time. Well during the summer, I told my bestfriend about my MD and about this site. She was supportive towards my MD and she didn't think I was crazy. But she wasn't too fond of me coming on this site. She says that I should focus on reality and interacting with real people more. She thinks that I come on this site for comfort knowing that there are people like me. She argues that if she looks up her insecurities as well, she probably could find some "condition or disorder". She doesn't really believe that I have a disorder/condition but she compares my daydreaming to an addiction and she thinks it relaxes me. She told me that she fantasizes too but obviously it's completely different from how an MDer fantasizes.</p>
<p>As for my daydreaming, it had gotten worse. With school starting, I think I'm more stressed due to work and more of my tv shows started. So I'm daydreaming much more and I have more urges to daydream as well. I often find myself going to bed at 3 am on a school day and then going to school late. I want to talk to the social worker of my school and get some help. However, my life is falling into place. I really like grade 11 and all of my classes and I have made bew friends. :) It's just sometimes the school days could get overwhelming as I struggle to balance work with spending time with friends, daydreaming, and watching my tv shows which I am commited to and then there are other things that is needed to be done through out the day as well. </p>
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<p>Anyways, I'm here on this site for one last time because I wanted to share some information that I found out. So in psychology class, we were watching a video about drugs and the chemistry of the brain. So I wanted to share what I learnt and the connection with it to maladaptive daydreaming, anxiety, and dissociation something I'm sure many can relate to. So two chemicals called dopamine and serotine are chemicals that give us pleasure and prevent us from feeling depressed. When people consume alcohol or drugs, the levels of dopamine and serotine get higher and the next day the levels of dopamine or serotine either goes back to normal or goes lower and lower depending on how many times you've had that particular drug/alcohol. As the levels of dopamine or serotine decrease, the more depressed/stressed/tensed we feel. That's why people are addicted to drugs/alcohol because they need it to make them feel good or get a high out of it. So in this report in this site actually, it was talking about how we have a surplus of dopamine. </p>
<p>"logical to think that Maladaptive Daydreamers could possibly have a surplus of dopamine in their brains that allow them to create so easily a world of in own minds."</p>
<p>Now I would like to talk about some of the similarities between drug/alcohol consuming and maladaptive daydreaming. As you all know that, daydreaming is a form of disociation and so is numbing out your feelings as I've heard so many of you also do. So I'm guessing that in order to numb out your feelings during bad times, you need higher levels of dopamine. In another article, I read that people in dissociative spectrum(doesn't necessarily mean that you have to have a dissociative disorder) are smart because they have found a way to dissociate and not feel as much pain. But that doesn't mean that many of us don't have depression or don't feel stressed or any sort of negative feelings. I think many of us here have mentioned that they have anxiety and they feel awkward around people. Well, in that video, as I said before, after drinking or taking drugs, they feel anxious, depressed, tensed etc. Many of us also claim that after we dded for a long time, we tend to have headaches or feel depressed just like alcoholics or drug users. Drug users also have hallucinations which brings me to my next point. I think most of us don't have a fantasy personality trait, not all of us fit into that category but since we dd, I think we all are fantasy prone to a certain extent though. So just like the drug users, fantasy prone personalities have hallucinations. I've mentioned before that drug/alcohol users have high levels of dopamine and the report also says that mladaptive daydreamers have a "surplus of dopamine" in our brains. Which brings us to my final question, do you think we actually have more dipomine in our brains than other people and do you think that we have found a way to feel the way that some drugs may make other people feel? Do you think when when we have our dd binges, do you think it is similar to that of what alcohol or drug binges feel like? I've personally haven't done anything but smoke shisha so I just wanted your opinion. </p>
<p>I'm no psychologist or any expert on this topic but I just wanted to share what I was thinking so please don't judge. :)</p>
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<p>And by the way, greyartist, I listen to your radio shows often and I love them. I was actually the one that called last time. I'm sorry, I did sound really awkward. I had so much more to say but I was really nervous. That was my first time being in a radio show. But I really like what you're doling and keep it up. :)</p>
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<p>For everyone of you that don't know what fantasy prone personality is :</p>
<p><a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Fantasy_prone_personality">http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Fantasy_prone_personality</a></p>
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<p>And this is the report that says that we have a surplus of dopamine in our brains. </p>
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<p><a href="http://wildminds.ning.com/profiles/blogs/official-maladaptive?xg_source=activity">http://wildminds.ning.com/profiles/blogs/official-maladaptive?xg_source=activity</a></p>
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<p>I might not come to this site often anymore because I made a promise to my bestfriend that I'm not going to and also because I need to focus on school and my life at the moment. But it was great meeting all of you and thank you Cordiella for creating this site. It was great talking to all of you and relating to you all. I'll miss everyone on here. :( Good bye. </p>
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<p></p>Have you ever been made fun of for having a mental condition or disorder?tag:wildminds.ning.com,2012-06-28:4661400:BlogPost:940252012-06-28T22:53:30.000ZLostSoul99https://wildminds.ning.com/profile/AutrociousB
<p>Today, I went for training. Well this girl who's also taking the same job as me was in my class. She had a disorder. It was pretty obvious since she'd always get anxious when ever she heard a loud noise. Then she would start moving her hands back and forth really fast. She told the teacher that she won't stab anyone or anything but she is diagnosed with mental disorders. What upset me is the fact that the teacher completely mocked her in class, gave her dirty looks throughout class and said…</p>
<p>Today, I went for training. Well this girl who's also taking the same job as me was in my class. She had a disorder. It was pretty obvious since she'd always get anxious when ever she heard a loud noise. Then she would start moving her hands back and forth really fast. She told the teacher that she won't stab anyone or anything but she is diagnosed with mental disorders. What upset me is the fact that the teacher completely mocked her in class, gave her dirty looks throughout class and said "I wouldn't let you take care of my kids" and asked her why she got the job in the first place. Her answer was that she had anxiety attacks so she wasn't too unfit for the job. What upset me is how ignorant people can be. The teacher, who was supposed be a mature adult was completely insensitive towards her and before making a remark like that, he didn't even bother to know what was actually wrong with her which he should have done. Suffering from MD, I was sort of offended too. Anyways, I was observing her and I noticed that despite her disability, she was a pretty smart and confident girl. She answered most of the questions that were asked and it looked like she had a pretty high IQ. I know that it isn't being around people that cause this anxiety but it looks like loud noises and things around her are one of the main causes. So I know that she couldn't have avoidant personality disorder so I was wondering does anyone of you know what disorder she could have? I'm just really curious. I was also wondering if anyone of you ever felt neglected or have been ridiculed for any mental conditions and mental disorders that you have? I could be MD or something else. I just wanna hear your story.</p>social anxietytag:wildminds.ning.com,2012-06-18:4661400:BlogPost:928692012-06-18T20:11:18.000ZLostSoul99https://wildminds.ning.com/profile/AutrociousB
<p>Hello I`m Sara. Most of you probably dont know me because Im new and I do not post blogs but this is something I really wanted to share. </p>
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<p>This girl that I know, more like an acquiescence , friend of a friend. You know what I mean. Well she`s gunna move so a lot of people from my grade made a little video for her. So we all showed the video after school to her. I wasn`t a part of the video cause I was absent in school. But I wanted to go because I felt obligated to since the…</p>
<p>Hello I`m Sara. Most of you probably dont know me because Im new and I do not post blogs but this is something I really wanted to share. </p>
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<p>This girl that I know, more like an acquiescence , friend of a friend. You know what I mean. Well she`s gunna move so a lot of people from my grade made a little video for her. So we all showed the video after school to her. I wasn`t a part of the video cause I was absent in school. But I wanted to go because I felt obligated to since the girl is a nice person and she has tried to reach out to be many times before. But honestly I did not want to go at all. I get really anxious during social situations and often feel like shit afterwards. Anyways, I went and when we were watching the video, most of the girls were crying. I just sat there, no emotion, no feelings, nothing. I wasn`t even sad. I just didn`t feel anything. I only felt sad about the fact that everyone is so close; close enough to consider each other family. And I`m just there. I felt like I wasted my child hood, always trynna avoid social situations, friends and everything. Now even though I have friends, I cant think of one memory where I had a good time or a time when I wasnt anxious. Well I had experienced bullying and I feel as if that was the point from where I had so much social anxiety. I feel as if even if my best friend moves away, I wouldn`t feel anything. There were so many times in my life where I remember asking myself why dont I feel anything when I should be sad. And sometimes I feel as if the only things that bring me pleasure anymore, is DDing, or anything triggering my DDs like my movies and tv shows. Has any of you ever felt the same way?</p>