Kathy's Posts - Wild Minds network2024-03-19T08:48:14ZKathyhttps://wildminds.ning.com/profile/KathyDavishttps://storage.ning.com/topology/rest/1.0/file/get/3145241588?profile=RESIZE_48X48&width=48&height=48&crop=1%3A1https://wildminds.ning.com/profiles/blog/feed?user=07wk81fgj76y0&xn_auth=noDaydreaming of being away from hometag:wildminds.ning.com,2012-09-07:4661400:BlogPost:1003772012-09-07T03:59:51.000ZKathyhttps://wildminds.ning.com/profile/KathyDavis
<p>So lately, home hasn't really been a safe place for me. At least it doesn't feel that way. My brother, who raped me when I was 8&9 (he was 12 or 13 ish) is staying here with my family and I for about a month. I'm 16, so I can't do a lot to get away and out of the house. I don't have my L either. My mom says she understands how I feel, but I know she doesn't. My mom and my dad went ahead and said "Yes you can stay" without even talking to me about if I'd be okay with it or not. It's…</p>
<p>So lately, home hasn't really been a safe place for me. At least it doesn't feel that way. My brother, who raped me when I was 8&9 (he was 12 or 13 ish) is staying here with my family and I for about a month. I'm 16, so I can't do a lot to get away and out of the house. I don't have my L either. My mom says she understands how I feel, but I know she doesn't. My mom and my dad went ahead and said "Yes you can stay" without even talking to me about if I'd be okay with it or not. It's ridiculous. Today (Sept. 6) I grabbed my phone and iPod and told my sister I was going for a long walk and just left because I couldn't take it anymore. I didn't care where, as long as it was away from home. My home life has never been this dramatic of me wanting to leave home for a few hours. I mean, I've wanted to leave home before, but for different reasons. Anyways, as I was walking, I was having day dreams about where I could go. Some place nice, who knows, maybe even leave the province (as I'm in Canada). For some reason California came to mind, I started day dreaming about running away to California with my boyfriend and being at a beach, sun setting, and just feeling free. I've had real dreams like this too and it's kinda confusing me as to why. Does anyone have any idea of what it could mean other than something literal? Anyways, as I was walking I passed this guy who was weed whacking (for his job) and he asked me if I was okay. I said I was as okay as I could be. We talked for a bit, and at the end of our conversation he told me to try to have a good day. I ended up walking 3 or 4 miles, possibly 5. I wanted to walk more, but my feet hurt too much, I could barely stand. I am feeling a little better now, but I still can't get that image out of my head of being in the setting California sun, free. Maybe it's a sign of healing and recovery? I don't know, I just wanna get there</p>
<p></p>Last Night, I had a DD of falling asleep in my crushes arms.tag:wildminds.ning.com,2012-06-19:4661400:BlogPost:934062012-06-19T23:47:56.000ZKathyhttps://wildminds.ning.com/profile/KathyDavis
<p>Anyone else have this? It was so cute. In my DD, I told him about some abuse I suffered through as a kid, and he was like "Come here" and then I fell asleep with him and felt his hand join mine :3.</p>
<p>Anyone else have this? It was so cute. In my DD, I told him about some abuse I suffered through as a kid, and he was like "Come here" and then I fell asleep with him and felt his hand join mine :3.</p>A Daydream inside of a daydream?tag:wildminds.ning.com,2012-06-18:4661400:BlogPost:930442012-06-18T01:48:39.000ZKathyhttps://wildminds.ning.com/profile/KathyDavis
<p>So... Does anyone else have it where you're in the middle of a day dream, then another daydream interrupts it??</p>
<p>So... Does anyone else have it where you're in the middle of a day dream, then another daydream interrupts it??</p>