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Jessica Ballantyne
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  • Oakville
  • Canada
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How it started

Started 57 minutes ago 0 Replies

I think that my MDD originated...well, to escape a life that was emotional hard to live through. I mean,growing up in the world, I had too much trouble protecting myself from getting bullied and…Continue

Moving onward in the future

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I saw a tea leaf readers on Sunday at a studio in the country side. She looked at my leaves and saw a new movement or action coming soon, as early as this fall, things pick up in September. She…Continue

feeling beside myself

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There are days where I strongly feel lost and beside my self. Like nobody knows, cares or sees what I go through on an every day basis. Even if I describe it...I don't know, they won't take it…Continue

Suddenly I see now

Started Jul 13 0 Replies

I used to do MDD for 20 years, but now merging into my 30's, I am waking up to reality more and more. Past two days, my awareness of the earthly world I live in has become a lot clearer to mind.…Continue

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Jessica Ballantyne posted a discussion

How it started

I think that my MDD originated...well, to escape a life that was emotional hard to live through. I mean,growing up in the world, I had too much trouble protecting myself from getting bullied and tormented for being "socially awkward." Many people were very mean to me for the exact same reasons. I was extremely quiet and really scared of them. I had asperger syndrome, which is probably why I never spoke too much and had trouble making eye contact. I spent years and years in a periphery doing my…See More
57 minutes ago
Jessica Ballantyne replied to Alice Liddle's discussion As a mother, im trying my best to hide it.
"My MDD is less severe. In fact its gradually going away. I see life in a totally new and different way that makes me say, Wha! I do want to focus on real things, such as family and career and getting back into society. It is all a matter of time…"
5 hours ago
Jessica Ballantyne replied to Alice Liddle's discussion As a mother, im trying my best to hide it.
"Yea, err...I get the feeling. I am sorry to hear your husband limits himself from emotionally reading and connecting to your on a deeper level. Everybody in my life is basically like this towards me. Many have been highly biased to what my mind is…"
5 hours ago
Jessica Ballantyne replied to Alice Liddle's discussion As a mother, im trying my best to hide it.
"Day dreaming has really impacted my every day life. I lost track of interests and hobbies I used to dive into. These days, I simply read or write online, but other times, I will just sit on a sofa or bench let my mind wonder for a very long time,…"
6 hours ago
Jessica Ballantyne replied to Alice Liddle's discussion As a mother, im trying my best to hide it.
"I can't count how many times someone caught me day dreaming. It was often mortifying. I guess, because I let it be shown in full bloom. My MDD was strong, so I did a lot of laughing, talking, gyrating and bodily gestures. My eyes usually…"
12 hours ago
Jessica Ballantyne replied to Alice Liddle's discussion As a mother, im trying my best to hide it.
"I began to day dream too much since age 12 myself. I started with low self-esteem and dissatisfaction with my real life situations. I suffered with Asperger Syndrome and it made it extremely hard for me to connect and blend in with other boys and…"
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Moving onward in the future

I saw a tea leaf readers on Sunday at a studio in the country side. She looked at my leaves and saw a new movement or action coming soon, as early as this fall, things pick up in September. She explained to me a positive pyramid, which means a 3 person event. She noticed in the leaves a form of a person. This person represents a significant partnership, perhaps business, maybe even romance. She saw a few scrolls involving books, writing, education, career and so forth. She did see an archway of…See More
yesterday
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Tuesday
Jessica Ballantyne and EntiWarmRock are now friends
Tuesday
Jessica Ballantyne posted a discussion

feeling beside myself

There are days where I strongly feel lost and beside my self. Like nobody knows, cares or sees what I go through on an every day basis. Even if I describe it...I don't know, they won't take it seriously or just put it that "I should shape up" or "there you have it." It's like some of them think I'm stupid brains...and hoot that I can't figure it out and get over myself. It's awfully hard to conform into their so-called Norm society when nobody bothers to teach you things, rather, people will…See More
Monday
Jessica Ballantyne posted a blog post

social skills

I have been alone for quite a long time. I see my best girl pal occasionally, but most times, I spend a majority of my life in a very introverted setting. Whether I do art, read a book, serf the web or write articles I always just sit there all by myself. Only time I ever really socialize is when I play Badminton and Volleyball at a local recreational center with team members, about twice a week. I am still trying to broaden my social strategies in wherever there's a group get together. I have…See More
Sunday
Jessica Ballantyne posted a blog post

Refresh

I think, I get this.I've been living in worlds of 'my own' for so long, I never payed attention to whose really 'here.' That is why my life looks so empty of people. MDD made me far less interactive than I should have been. So, now that I learned, I have to pick up from where I left everything, and 'refresh' my life. Unfortunately, I waited later into my 30's to start doing this, because I've been such an idiot in my youth. I also have to return to school and change my career. I jumped into a…See More
Jul 21
Fallen Messenger commented on Jessica Ballantyne's blog post My Glassy Life
"To add on to Ulaan Gom, one of those baby steps could be joining a new church and meeting new people there. I guess you also could get a job somewhere that doesn't require too much sociability so you can meet some new people. Please do not take…"
Jul 20
Jessica Ballantyne and Anna are now friends
Jul 20
Ulaan Gom commented on Jessica Ballantyne's blog post My Glassy Life
"Thank you for sharing your story. Sometimes living with MDD can be disheartening, especially when it's been going on for so long. However, please do not give up hope. There still are actions that you can take in real life to turn your situation…"
Jul 19
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I gasped when I saw the 10th reason why you waste your life

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Talk Show

Posted on July 25, 2017 at 6:53am 0 Comments

This morning I was sitting at the TV having my breakfast. My mother went out shopping, so I was alone in the kitchen.

I suddenly began to fall into a fantasy where I was being interviewed in a talk show about my life long struggles with Asperger Syndrome and how I am overcoming it very slowly. I began talking towards the TV with my hands waving around while eating and sipping my coffee. In my head, I was talking to a talk show host in front of a big audience of people and…

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social skills

Posted on July 22, 2017 at 8:38pm 0 Comments

I have been alone for quite a long time. I see my best girl pal occasionally, but most times, I spend a majority of my life in a very introverted setting. Whether I do art, read a book, serf the web or write articles I always just sit there all by myself.

Only time I ever really socialize is when I play Badminton and Volleyball at a local recreational center with team members, about twice a week. I am still trying to broaden my social strategies in wherever there's a group get together.…

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Refresh

Posted on July 21, 2017 at 7:55am 0 Comments

I think, I get this.



I've been living in worlds of 'my own' for so long, I never payed attention to whose really 'here.' That is why my life looks so empty of people. MDD made me far less interactive than I should have been. So, now that I learned, I have to pick up from where I left everything, and 'refresh' my life. Unfortunately, I waited later into my 30's to start doing this, because I've been such an idiot in my youth. I also have to return to school and change my…

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