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Jessica Ballantyne
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Suddenly I see now

Started Jul 13 0 Replies

I used to do MDD for 20 years, but now merging into my 30's, I am waking up to reality more and more. Past two days, my awareness of the earthly world I live in has become a lot clearer to mind.…Continue

I took it for granted

Started this discussion. Last reply by Jessica Ballantyne Jul 11. 2 Replies

Since I was born, I took for granted the consequences daydreaming would bring to my future. I never realized how unsafe it is to constantly drown in an ongoing stream of daydreams inside your head.…Continue

What I'm Feeling

Started this discussion. Last reply by Alecia Jul 11. 1 Reply

I feel as if I have no where to go and there's nobody around that will listen to me, all except those on Wild Minds Network. Having Asperger Syndrome and this unusual gift, it's so hard to relate to…Continue

MDD adapting from films

Started this discussion. Last reply by Jessica Ballantyne Jul 11. 3 Replies

When my MDD was at it's peak, during my 20's, my imagination worked in the funniest ways. My family would watch classic movies between the 40's and 60's. Theater diction and style of voice was so…Continue

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I think, I get this.I've been living in worlds of 'my own' for so long, I never payed attention to whose really 'here.' That is why my life looks so empty of people. MDD made me far less interactive than I should have been. So, now that I learned, I have to pick up from where I left everything, and 'refresh' my life. Unfortunately, I waited later into my 30's to start doing this, because I've been such an idiot in my youth. I also have to return to school and change my career. I jumped into a…See More
23 hours ago
Fallen Messenger commented on Jessica Ballantyne's blog post My Glassy Life
"To add on to Ulaan Gom, one of those baby steps could be joining a new church and meeting new people there. I guess you also could get a job somewhere that doesn't require too much sociability so you can meet some new people. Please do not take…"
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Ulaan Gom commented on Jessica Ballantyne's blog post My Glassy Life
"Thank you for sharing your story. Sometimes living with MDD can be disheartening, especially when it's been going on for so long. However, please do not give up hope. There still are actions that you can take in real life to turn your situation…"
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Mother

My mom is so mean. I innocently come downstairs to the kitchen for food. She's is always talking a lot. Me, almost never. Anyway, she'll ask me or tell me about something she observed in the news or in a TV show. It will be about a person or some catchy reference. Anyway, I can be slow at responding, kind of like a man. Anyway, I can be wide awake at least, when she's got something to say. If I don't react the way she wants me to, well, she'll suddenly wail at me so loudly and angrily, like at…See More
Monday
Fallen Messenger commented on Jessica Ballantyne's blog post Learned my lesson
"I completely agree with MatthewR and Ulaan Gom. We all struggle with this factor of MD, but it is hitting you particularly hard right now: time steals everything, but MD makes you oblivious of that time, so everything that you had is slowly slipping…"
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Jessica Ballantyne commented on Jessica Ballantyne's blog post Learned my lesson
"Thanks, I am just starting to see this coming."
Jul 16
Jessica Ballantyne commented on Jessica Ballantyne's blog post Learned my lesson
Jul 16
Ulaan Gom commented on Jessica Ballantyne's blog post Learned my lesson
"Honestly I couldn't agree more with MatthewR. Daydreaming excessively can be frustrating, especially if it's compiled with difficult life situations and not being able to live out your full potential. However, our past does NOT have to…"
Jul 15
Jessica Ballantyne commented on Jessica Ballantyne's blog post Learned my lesson
"Thank you for seeing what I'm going through"
Jul 15
MatthewR commented on Jessica Ballantyne's blog post Learned my lesson
"Hi Jessica, I hope you're doing better now. I think the important thing for us is to realize that we've still got life left enough to make some changes. True, we've been at this for most of our lives, but it doesn't have to end…"
Jul 15
MatthewR liked Jessica Ballantyne's blog post Learned my lesson
Jul 15
Jessica Ballantyne posted a blog post

Learned my lesson

This morning I was practically torn to pieces. It's a long story, but it's a combination of my maladaptive dreaming and my struggles with social skills. Since I was a little thing, I always dreamed of having lots of friends and experiencing relationships. I always wanted romance in my life and it was never there, so I have always been a single female. Mostly, I always wondered what it was like to be a well-liked and well-admired woman. Right now, I am the biggest loner in the world. My dad…See More
Jul 15
EntiWarmRock commented on Jessica Ballantyne's blog post Surround Awareness
"I have a lot of trouble with the "tunnel vision" thing you were talking about. Because I withdraw into my head so much, I can't focus on the surroundings and i was very surprised to discover that people often start conversations and…"
Jul 15

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Posted on July 21, 2017 at 7:55am 0 Comments

I think, I get this.



I've been living in worlds of 'my own' for so long, I never payed attention to whose really 'here.' That is why my life looks so empty of people. MDD made me far less interactive than I should have been. So, now that I learned, I have to pick up from where I left everything, and 'refresh' my life. Unfortunately, I waited later into my 30's to start doing this, because I've been such an idiot in my youth. I also have to return to school and change my…

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My Glassy Life

Posted on July 19, 2017 at 3:45pm 2 Comments

I grew up around my grade school peers for years, although I had very little in common with them. I wasn't their kind and couldn't seem to speak their language. Well even after my College years, I looked up old peers on Facebook, and noticed they were living their lives to the fullest." They were never alone." Pictures sprawled on timeline pages showing their friends, spouses, boyfriends, girlfriends, children and family. Although, I would try to keep  in touch with Facebook chat box…

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Wasn't thinking

Posted on July 18, 2017 at 5:35pm 0 Comments

I am sort of shocked at all things I never knew about, while growing up in my hometown all these years. For instance,

why so many people wanted to 'pick on me' or blame me for something, almost with no mercy. It is as if how I felt made

no difference. Also, of course, why people refused to befriend me, or even date me, all because I appeared very peculiar

on the outside. Like, I almost wasn't talking...almost not at all. I was always thinking, drifting, pondering or…

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Mother

Posted on July 17, 2017 at 4:28pm 0 Comments

My mom is so mean. I innocently come downstairs to the kitchen for food. She's is always talking a lot. Me, almost never. Anyway, she'll ask me or tell me about something she observed in the news or in a TV show. It will be about a person or some catchy reference. Anyway, I can be slow at responding, kind of like a man. Anyway, I can be wide awake at least, when she's got something to say. If I don't react the way she wants me to, well, she'll suddenly wail at me so loudly and…

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