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This freaks me out

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When I woke up from Maladaptive daydreaming at 29, I was absolutely terrified at all the essential things in life that I missed out on. What normal person has never dated before age 30?! I then…Continue

Intimidated at the dinner table

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I feel intimidated at the dinner table, because my family is heavily into talking politics. Whereas, I spent too much time in my day dreams, never paying attention to what's really happening around…Continue

Two Opposite Worlds

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My family still thinks I don't live in this world, and am completely wrapped up in my own. I guess in some ways, I still day dream at times, which all tend to involve stories about me and my…Continue

Past changes everything

Started Jan 10 0 Replies

Having both Autism and a mind that constantly day dreams excessively, I had no choice but to land up a lonely and unfortunate individual. Let's face it, everybody found me too weird for words. My…Continue

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Jessica Ballantyne posted a blog post

Failed Romantic Life

I spent my entire life day dreaming about getting together so very nicely with people. I'd invent imaginary worlds where I do all sorts of exciting, daring and romantic things with people I had crushes from films and TV shows. I was strongly hoping that in real life, I could still experience building relationships or friendships in the exact same enlightening way. However, when I entered the real world, it was so very disappointed with how badly I bonded with everybody I've ever met. Not only…See More
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Jessica Ballantyne posted a discussion

This freaks me out

When I woke up from Maladaptive daydreaming at 29, I was absolutely terrified at all the essential things in life that I missed out on. What normal person has never dated before age 30?! I then remembered having thousands of people criticize me in so many ways that it gives me insomnia at night. I didn't seem to really listen to then, nor care at all, because I was so "lost and gone" in my head at all times. I still live at home with mommy and daddy, staring across our field at the same stupid…See More
Wednesday
Jessica Ballantyne posted a discussion

Intimidated at the dinner table

I feel intimidated at the dinner table, because my family is heavily into talking politics. Whereas, I spent too much time in my day dreams, never paying attention to what's really happening around me. So, I almost have no idea about the political world out there! It really of makes me feel like such an idiot. I have also been self-absorbed and self-concerned for quite a few years. People have often never noticed me, continued with their conversations, though wondered if I was feeling…See More
Jan 14
Jessica Ballantyne posted a discussion

Two Opposite Worlds

My family still thinks I don't live in this world, and am completely wrapped up in my own. I guess in some ways, I still day dream at times, which all tend to involve stories about me and my fictional friends. Other times, I am intrigued by real world events, documentaries on real people and even politics. It's just, I can't pay attention to both worlds at once. If I really want to put my entire head into real world situations, then I would have to abandon my day dream worlds altogether. This…See More
Jan 12
Jessica Ballantyne posted a discussion

Past changes everything

Having both Autism and a mind that constantly day dreams excessively, I had no choice but to land up a lonely and unfortunate individual. Let's face it, everybody found me too weird for words. My peculiar behavior made them so uncomfortable and they got creeped right out. My sudden inappropriate laughter, eye movements around the room, also compulsive body flaps and twitches steered them clear away from me. My strong silence, due to thinking and dreaming too much, made them gossip all around…See More
Jan 10
Asma liked Jessica Ballantyne's discussion Learned so much
Jan 8
Jessica Ballantyne posted a discussion

Learned so much

Has anyone's life/career/social life been just shot to h*ll because of their maladaptive day dreaming? Have you ever wondered why it's gotten quite bad, and somebody comes and even reminds you? Have you ever noticed the friends and peers you once knew are no longer there. I notice that there is no career out there for you if you can't listen, interact and pay attention. Same goes for relationships, I noticed any bonding with someone will go sour if you can't listen to their words and stay with…See More
Jan 8
Jessica Ballantyne posted a discussion

What I do hurts relationships

Sometimes I figure that I had no relationships because I never lived on Earth. Talking and Listening is extremely important in any relationship. Bonding with people in a positive way is all enhanced by how well you communicate and how deep your understanding is with whoever your with. If you decide to be a million miles away, the chances are, everyone will wonder why you weren't with them—and if all fails, you are ultimately going to be left alone. I spent years wanting a relationship, but…See More
Jan 6
Aquarius replied to Jessica Ballantyne's discussion Someone Special in the New Year
"My40th birthday is next month. I always thought the same thing too,I still do. Am I deluding myself? how do i convince myself that this is something that now looks unlikely to happen. I am Asian so u know different standards apply. I'm done…"
Jan 4
Jessica Ballantyne posted a discussion

Someone Special in the New Year

As a young kid, I was so naive and ignorant about the real world, that I had no idea how I was effecting everybody until I was all grown up. It wasn't until I entered my 30's that everything just smacked me so hard in the face—the truth. Facing the truth can be the hardest thing you'll ever face in life, even if it means giving you a broken heart. I grew up a very unusual child with high functioning Autism and an expressive gift, but most of all, I indulged myself too far into maladaptive day…See More
Dec 28, 2017
Jessica Ballantyne posted a discussion

Strong for the New Year

I've always had an incredibly difficult time connecting with other people. Most of my old school peers didn't like me, nor agreed with me as a person. They found me so weird and extremely untalkative, thereby, they kept on assuming that I was stupid and weak. It hurt so much, just being the one that never fit in....wasn't all important....didn't mean a thing to anyone. Well this Christmas, I stood tall and put myself together. I realized that I still have a chance, and nobody can change that,…See More
Dec 26, 2017
Jessica Ballantyne replied to A's discussion Does anyone know?
"My mom is not very supportive and nice about, but does want me to see a psychiatrist. I am afraid if I tell a professional about my MDD, they'll think I'm nuts....and my life will be taken away from me."
Dec 25, 2017
Jessica Ballantyne posted a discussion

How do you all do it?

I have no idea how you guys do it! I had deception surrounding me at my workplace today, and my staff had no idea what really happened, but to take it all on me. I felt put on the spot! My manager freaked me out when he came to talk to me. He gave me his worst attitude ever—he reacted on me like an aggressive Mr. Bean, ordering me to repeat his words, "I can't promise you anything." Some of the female staff were witchy towards me too. My supervisor kept on rudely grouching and snapping at me,…See More
Dec 22, 2017
Jessica Ballantyne posted a discussion

Just to Ask

MDD is actually a heck of an ordeal in the real world. You don't want to be messing with non-family! Has anybody had an embarrassing situation with people that was beyond words? Especially when they discovered you are definitely someplace else?See More
Dec 20, 2017
Jessica Ballantyne and M are now friends
Dec 18, 2017
Jessica Ballantyne posted a blog post

I need this

I really wish I was so much more talkative and payed loads more attention to people, instead of day dreaming in life. I thought maybe a special person would not mind how utterly quiet I am and still desire a relationship with me, and I was totally dreaming. Relationships only work if you communicate, not sit there all quietly. So, now I feel like a f****** loser. I am on a quest to meet the right person every single day. When I see other people in a relationship, even married, I get really…See More
Dec 17, 2017

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Failed Romantic Life

Posted on January 19, 2018 at 3:59pm 0 Comments

I spent my entire life day dreaming about getting together so very nicely with people. I'd invent imaginary worlds where

I do all sorts of exciting, daring and romantic things with people I had crushes from films and TV shows. I was strongly hoping that in real life, I could still experience building relationships or friendships in the exact same enlightening way.

However, when I entered the real world, it was so very disappointed with how badly I bonded with everybody I've…

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I need this

Posted on December 17, 2017 at 4:58pm 0 Comments

I really wish I was so much more talkative and payed loads more attention to people, instead of day dreaming in life.

I thought maybe a special person would not mind how utterly quiet I am and still desire a relationship with me, and I was totally dreaming. Relationships only work if you communicate, not sit there all quietly. So, now I feel like a f****** loser.

I am on a quest to meet the right person every single day. When I see other people in a relationship, even…

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Aftermath

Posted on December 8, 2017 at 7:35am 1 Comment



I was wrong to be dwelling in unrealistic worlds for most of my life. My mind is immersing into the real world for the

first time, so it's not like I always appreciate what I see. People are constantly bringing up my lousy manners, such as my inability to interact properly. A customer at my work got so angry because I didn't not say "Hello" to her in return. It is almost as if I am still self-absorbed. Overall, I have no social life. Learning to survive on my own is very tough. I…

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I prefered not to speak

Posted on December 2, 2017 at 3:09pm 0 Comments



This might sound crazy. I spent 20 years being very quiet, and day dreamed way too much. I notice nothing I ever wanted came my way in life. In fact, being silent and living in other worlds has brought me where I am today. People abruptly refused to date me, invite me, hire me, raise me and be friends with me. Some of them even discovered my compulsive fantasizing, just by looking at my eyes and noticing that I don't ever listen. I was bullied mercilessly in grade school and had a…

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