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Hello,  I´ve had MD for as long as I can remember. I'm approaching 30 and my life is a mess, I still live with my parents and I have no job, also have a long story with eating disorders leading me to cope with depression and recently suicidal thoughts.  Of course, my real life isn't even near to the amazing one I have created with my MD and it's getting hard to deal with the fact I´ll never be t…