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Does anyone else feel conflicted? As in most times DD is under control, relaxing, and OK and other times it sends you into a horrible horrible depression? I can't tell if I just slip into super lows and blame the daydreaming or if the daydreaming sends me there. Most of the time I'm not obsessed and DD is okay but evet once in a while a new storyline triggers out of no where and I start to hate…