I have always had difficulty in school. I was a night owl, since I can remember. It was so hard to wake up in the mourning. I also had undiagnosed Irlen Syndrome(a light sensitivity) which effected, my perception, reading, and spacial abilities. I'm also hopeless with details, or numbers. I mostly feel like a failure as far as academics are concerned. I spent a lot of time in elementary, in my own head, thinking about religion. I would also daydream my ideal school. When I got older I mainly daydreamed I was somewhere else. I still thought of religion. I also would daydream of my ideal job, where I would not be bored, and feel like a failure. 

I always struggled in school due to my daydreaming and my OCD.  In fourth grade I was diagnosed with ADD and given medication.  The medication made me worse.  I would stare uncontrollably and had no ability to focus on anything.  I became a complete zombie.  They tried several different drugs and they all did the same.  I was a skinny girl and I lost so much wait my mom quit the whole process and I went off the meds.  I became happy and energetic again but I still struggled with paying attention in class.  I always felt I was worse than the kids who talked during class and got in trouble.  I was praised for being quiet but really I was just as guilty as the others, talking to my imaginary friends in my head.  In college I would try as hard as I could to pay attention to lectures but it was near impossible.  I hated asking for accommodations in school, because I wanted so much to be treated like everyone else.  But the problem is I was working so much harder than others were.  I would accept bad grades and scolding from teachers and tried to convince myself it was my fault.  Now I hope MD can be recognized by teachers.  It's not always someone's fault that they aren't paying attention in class.  Maybe it's just extremely difficult and painful to do so.  

I managed to control my DDs for a while,I aced all my subjects in the past year.I started this year intending to top the class as I used to be.My plans were going well for while but then,one thing after another happened and I ended up depressed,I can't study nor carry out my home works,add to that my approaching exams,so things are just getting worse.