I'm edging towards my 40's, so I know who I'm not. When I was younger, I used to think I was somebody else, all of a sudden, in my MD life. It usually started when I watched a movie or TV program, and I would be drawn to my favourite character. Example, if I watched Star Wars, I imagined myself to be Princess Leia while facing real life situations. I've even imagined myself in male roles, believe it or not—I'm a girl. Faces always seem to switch, and I shift into other people's shoes, when I forget that I'm not any of these people. I'M ME. Apparently, I grew up pretending to be someone I wasn't, but never really learned who I truly am. So nobody couldn't find out who I really am. As a conclusion, I learned about my diagnosis, and came to par that not any of this characters have my brain health and symptoms—so I couldn't possibly have been my favourite characters. Especially in the way people act up on me in real life, like they think I'm being an idiot. Because they're not sure if I'm with them, and paying attention, understanding their lingo and everything. My fictional characters don't appear to have my real problems. It's always embarrassing waking up to that fact.
Pretending
by Jessica Ballantyne
on Thursday
I'm edging towards my 40's, so I know who I'm not. When I was younger, I used to think I was somebody else, all of a sudden, in my MD life. It usually started when I watched a movie or TV program, and I would be drawn to my favourite character. Example, if I watched Star Wars, I imagined myself to be Princess Leia while facing real life situations. I've even imagined myself in male roles, believe it or not—I'm a girl. Faces always seem to switch, and I shift into other people's shoes, when I forget that I'm not any of these people. I'M ME. Apparently, I grew up pretending to be someone I wasn't, but never really learned who I truly am. So nobody couldn't find out who I really am. As a conclusion, I learned about my diagnosis, and came to par that not any of this characters have my brain health and symptoms—so I couldn't possibly have been my favourite characters. Especially in the way people act up on me in real life, like they think I'm being an idiot. Because they're not sure if I'm with them, and paying attention, understanding their lingo and everything. My fictional characters don't appear to have my real problems. It's always embarrassing waking up to that fact.