Not having confidence and having anxiety issues is something you can get over; but you have to take the initiative and you have to be willing to make changes. The problem of people like us, the loner types, is that we wait for people to find us rather than search for them. If you think that finding someone who'd offer you support is truly worthwhile and helpful, then that's excellent. So start searching. Don't wait for others to come to you - sometimes you have to be the first one to give, and soon after that, you'll be given something in return. I'm painfully aware of how goddamn cliche all of this sounds, haha, and I apologize for wording it this way, but it's the truth. Until we are willing to change or improve ourselves, then no one can help us. Also, why don't you try finding a good psychotherapist on your own? I know it's awkward talking about fantasies, but what the hell. Talking about your problems to someone who's experienced will definitely make you feel better. I already told my family about MD and that I want a good psychiatrist, and they're fine with it; I don't have time for psychotherapy now because I'm soon going abroad to study, but if I just had a change, I wouldn't refuse it for anything. Of course, we're the ones who'll have to find solutions should we want to stop living in a fantasy world, but talking to a professional, who has encountered similar problems, can give us a dose of objectivity and make us realize things we didn't know about ourselves. We're so self-absorbed that we really do lack objectivity.

Anyways, I mentioned Neon Genesis Evangelion because I felt that you really have to watch it. To sum up, it's an anime about escapism, fantasies, wanting to reconstruct a better world where there's no pain, inner conflicts and despair caused by differences between your perfect world, your own truth and the real word, wanting to be loved and respected by everyone but feeling miserable, loss of identity, loneliness and anxiety as a result of all those factors. Sounds familiar? :) Haha, the similarities are actually hilarious. The anime is a product of its creator's personal struggles and certain psychological problems, including depression; the plot is one enormous mind-fuckery but themes are all autobiographical and the main theme is: reconstructing the world the way we'd like it to be. I don't say the anime is about MD, although I don't exclude the possibility and it could very possibly be, but it surely is about giving in to fantasies. You have to watch it. I'll give you the link of the movie which is a sequel to the anime,  so that you can see one scene. Skip to 01:13:30 and see if the dialogue stirs your attention for the following few minutes:

 http://www.animeultima.tv/neon-genesis-evangelion-the-end-of-evange...

Like I said, I don't know if it's about MD, but its creator had identical problems - and what's important, he did find his answers. The anime is sometimes vague, perplexing and highly complex but you'll be able to find some answers. We suffer from the same problems after all.

You're welcome. :)

Sorry it took me so long to reply. I can relate strongly to both that clip in the anime and what you said. As a result of my MD I have had sort of a loss of identity.  It's caused me to feel like I don't exist or that I'm just invisible and have no personality or identity. Sometimes it's hard for me to even identify how I feel about something when I'm asked for an opinion. It's almost like I have no soul.

I really want to get a psychotherapist to talk to about everything, but unfortunately, I currently don't have a way of paying for one, so I have to figure that out. 

Thanks for posting the link to the anime. That clip of the show is so powerful, deep and poetic and I think the creator knows me. The boy in the show, like me, wanted to escape to a fantasy world because he struggled to find happiness in reality and wanted to escape to a fantasy world and use that as a substitute for the real world. I liked what was said about how our imagination is a great tool to change the world and create a better future but if we aren't using it in the real world, nothing changes. Everything in that clip just hit me so hard. Now I know that I HAVE to watch this series. 

I understand. But it's also painfully logical for us not to have a defined identity, isn't it? We live dreams, not lives. All the personality traits, countless identities and values we created in our fantasies simply collapse in real world, so we end up being no one. However, your true emotions, your attention, your real self, your soul if you will - they are all directed towards your inner world. But an important thing to note is that they are not lost, they're just out of focus. Whenever you find yourself emotionally numb and indifferent to real people, or in real situations where you should care about something but you simply can't do it, just remember that you still have strong emotions and personality - they are just directed towards your dreamland. But as long as they exist, you can somehow reverse the situation and substitute your imaginary world for the real one. Of course, it will take months of hard work and severe psychoanalysis and you literally have wage wars against your unconscious and underlying issues. We have so much negative things to fight, from low self-esteem and worthlessness to loss of identity and emotional numbness, and I know we're getting instantly hopeless and depressed when considering all the negative traits we have to change, but we have to take a first step.

Same here. I desperately want a psychotherapist as well, but I'll be soon going to another country to study abroad where I don't have insurance that would cover it, so the idea is doomed to backfire, arghh. At least I hope to see a psychiatrist before leaving.

Glad you liked it. :) But keep in mind that in Evangelion 90% of events have a hidden psychological meaning. :)