Negative Daydreamers? Discussions - Wild Minds network2024-03-29T13:15:06Zhttps://wildminds.ning.com/group/negativedaydreamers/forum?feed=yes&xn_auth=noAre your characters tortured souls?tag:wildminds.ning.com,2021-07-07:4661400:Topic:4160572021-07-07T22:44:28.397ZJessica Chttps://wildminds.ning.com/profile/JessicaCochran
<p>Have you ever been traumatized by your own imagination?</p>
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<p>I've tried to focus my daydreams into positive stories. But, in truth that seems impossible. Even the ones that start out light turn dark. The biggest part is that my characters tend to be quite tortured, either by their own minds, their past, or their present. For some, it's unending while others do overcome what has been done to them. They might not have the sublime happy ending that most receive, but at least they…</p>
<p>Have you ever been traumatized by your own imagination?</p>
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<p>I've tried to focus my daydreams into positive stories. But, in truth that seems impossible. Even the ones that start out light turn dark. The biggest part is that my characters tend to be quite tortured, either by their own minds, their past, or their present. For some, it's unending while others do overcome what has been done to them. They might not have the sublime happy ending that most receive, but at least they are better off than when their story began.</p>
<p>I've turned a few of these into novels that I've written. One was especially dark and twisted to the point where I had to modify what I wrote (the one publisher I found willing to post something so dark felt that there were some parts that were too dark and taboo even for their publishing house).</p>
<p>I don't daydream that particular story anymore, though I do want to eventually write more novels for the series I started. I have the character's entire story in my head still. The daydreams came to me while I was severely depressed and had consumed me in ways that not other series of daydreams have. They lasted about two months, maybe a little longer. But, I wasn't able to do anything during that time. I couldn't hold a conversation. I barely registered when I had to use the bathroom. My roommate had to force me to eat and drink. If it wasn't for him I could have died from dehydration without realizing my life was in danger.</p>
<p>While most of my stories are dystopian and a bit dark, this one went well beyond anything I had ever daydreamed before. Actually, most of what had happened to the character disgusted me to the point where I felt horrible that even my overactive imagination had come up with such things. Only one publisher in the world would take something so sinister and even for them I had to alters some scenes (some of this for legal purposes, too).</p>
<p>For a few months I felt traumatized by my own mind. Saying that I was mortified by my own story is a bit of an understatement. I couldn't understand how or why I came up with such a thing. I had no control over the daydream at all and it was the only thing that was on my mind for the duration of it. My awareness of the outside world barely existed. I couldn't hold a conversation and it was difficult to respond to even simple questions.</p>
<p>I can handle the dark things I see in my mind. My characters go through horrible things in their past and sometimes their present. I've always felt bad about that and wondered if it had to do with my own tortured past. But, this one particular story was so horrid that most of it I won't ever share with anyone. I don't want people to know that my mind had created something so sinister.</p>
<p>Has anyone ever experienced this? I'm feeling better about it now, but I'm still bothered by what I dreamed. Some of it was so horrible that it's illegal to write about. Think of the worst thing a person could be forced to do, and then multiply it a bit. You might have an idea.</p>
<p>My characters are almost always tortured. I would like to daydream better and happier things, but such daydreams don't last.</p> Violence with Excessive Power in Daydreamstag:wildminds.ning.com,2018-07-13:4661400:Topic:3064082018-07-13T14:02:15.043Zeternity.824https://wildminds.ning.com/profile/eternity824
<p> Before I begin, I would like to point out that I do have Asberger’s Syndrome, so if I say anything I shouldn’t, please let me know and I will do what I can to correct my mistake(s).</p>
<p> In my daydreams I’m always the “bad guy” doing extremely violent things to other people and causing a town’s Armageddon. The characters and location(s) in my daydreams are from a show I loved as a kid (and still love today) that eventually lead to multiple severe mental health issues in the…</p>
<p> Before I begin, I would like to point out that I do have Asberger’s Syndrome, so if I say anything I shouldn’t, please let me know and I will do what I can to correct my mistake(s).</p>
<p> In my daydreams I’m always the “bad guy” doing extremely violent things to other people and causing a town’s Armageddon. The characters and location(s) in my daydreams are from a show I loved as a kid (and still love today) that eventually lead to multiple severe mental health issues in the past, which may be why I have these daydreams in the first place (suppressed anger and a desire for revenge). In fact, the only character in my daydreams who <em>isn’t</em> originally from the show is me, who is represented by an Antichrist character with unlimited god-like power and a thirst for blood.</p>
<p> One of the things that I find rather interesting about my own daydreams is that it’s not just one storyline playing out over time. Rather, it is a series of timelines that can be restarted and/or altered by me at any point. The personalities, role significance, attitudes, etc. of each of the characters varies from from timeline to timeline, which can mean a character who is a brilliant and kind-hearted person in the show can be quiet and reclusive in one timeline, and be a dangerous sociopath in the next. The themes can be altered as well as the order of events and many other plot elements in this universe, and I have never had a single daydream that was similar enough to the original series for their storylines to overlap.</p>
<p> There is also one character in these timelines that, no matter which timeline it is, I end up obsessing over and using my power to watch constantly. He is generally the main focus of my fantasies and the main reason my alternate self does what she does. I often fantasize about doing bad things to him (usually rape and/or torture), which I really know I shouldn’t be, but I honestly just can’t help it.</p>
<p> I daydream about all of this violence and unlimited power constantly, and I always get a sick feeling of enjoyment out of it. Sometimes it’s almost impossible for me to think about anything else, and I will end up pacing for large amounts of time blasting the same song on repeat. My daydreams are usually the source of inspiration for my stories and art, and I will sometimes spend hours on end writing or drawing out one or more of my alternate timelines. Others around me even have to monitor how much time I spend daydreaming so it doesn’t become as out of hand as it has been multiple times in the past. Additionally, I often feel alone; like no one understands the kind of feelings I experience whenever I do this, because no one <em>does</em> understand. Whenever I tell someone that I daydream constantly and do whatever I can to become closer to the emotions I get out of it, they think I’m insane, delusional, or overly desperate to live a certain way. And, yes, I <em>know</em> that what I’m feeling is wrong, but it’s impossible for me to stop, not that I want to anyway. And whenever I do try to stop to focus on things that I know should be more important, it keeps on going, and even if I try to “end” one timeline, another one begins, and it’s completely out of my control. And I haven’t even been able to identify any triggers to it - my daydreams often become more intense out of absolutely nowhere.</p>
<p> Another thing I should point out is that although I do have these fantasies constantly playing in my mind, there’s no way I’d ever do anything like that to anyone in real life. My therapist says that as long as I don’t want to hurt anyone in the real world, I’m safe and okay. So, no, to shut down any thoughts you may be having about this, I’m not a serial killer, rapist, or anything like that - never was, never will be, and I don’t encourage <em>anyone</em> to go down that path. I may find pleasure out of doing such things to characters in my daydreams, but I know that harming others in the real world is not okay.</p>
<p> Sorry this was so long. What do you guys think? Do any of you do anything similar? Or am I the only one out there who has this kind of violence with unlimited power in their daydreams?</p> Ever daydream of a possible sequence of events of a video for a song?tag:wildminds.ning.com,2014-05-14:4661400:Topic:1818362014-05-14T20:04:04.653ZSammy Nusairhttps://wildminds.ning.com/profile/SammyNusair
<p>I often have this daydream scenario where I play a song in my head, and imagine a suitable</p>
<p>theme to it. Usually, I play Tool's No Quarter, and the video I imagine is pretty much depressing, violent, and morbid. Each time I replay it in my head, I only change little details to perfect it, but</p>
<p>the main theme never changes. Anyone else.. ?</p>
<p>I often have this daydream scenario where I play a song in my head, and imagine a suitable</p>
<p>theme to it. Usually, I play Tool's No Quarter, and the video I imagine is pretty much depressing, violent, and morbid. Each time I replay it in my head, I only change little details to perfect it, but</p>
<p>the main theme never changes. Anyone else.. ?</p> Violent Daydreamstag:wildminds.ning.com,2014-03-31:4661400:Topic:1780892014-03-31T04:26:00.852ZThe1andonlyAbberhttps://wildminds.ning.com/profile/The1andonlyAbber
My daydreams are not very sad, but they're very violent. In my daydreams, I'm the queen of a large, futuristic empire in space. There have been 3 wars so far. When I daydream about the wars there's lots of graphic violence and a huge death toll. But everything turns out okay in the end. My character's empire always wins, and none of the people that died are people she knew very well. Well, she and her friends and sister ALMOST die, but they don't.<br />
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I also have a LOT of daydreams where I have to…
My daydreams are not very sad, but they're very violent. In my daydreams, I'm the queen of a large, futuristic empire in space. There have been 3 wars so far. When I daydream about the wars there's lots of graphic violence and a huge death toll. But everything turns out okay in the end. My character's empire always wins, and none of the people that died are people she knew very well. Well, she and her friends and sister ALMOST die, but they don't.<br />
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I also have a LOT of daydreams where I have to slay a monster. The monster is always 100% evil (I mean killing-people-for-fun evil), so I never feel guilty about killing it, but what has me concerned is that there's always a lot of blood and guts whenever I kill the monster (often more blood and guts than what would actually be realistic). My Obsession With Brain Injuriestag:wildminds.ning.com,2013-09-09:4661400:Topic:1566142013-09-09T20:27:18.482ZCarahttps://wildminds.ning.com/profile/Cara
<p>I've literally only just learned about Maladaptive Daydreaming. I often daydream about dying, usually from a severe blow to the head, such as being in a car accident or falling from a height.</p>
<p>But I do this because I fantasise that I will be sort of reborn into another universe as another person (who I've made up) where I would live this other life I've spent many hours making up in my head. The strange thing is that this life is far from perfect, it's more life something you'd watch…</p>
<p>I've literally only just learned about Maladaptive Daydreaming. I often daydream about dying, usually from a severe blow to the head, such as being in a car accident or falling from a height.</p>
<p>But I do this because I fantasise that I will be sort of reborn into another universe as another person (who I've made up) where I would live this other life I've spent many hours making up in my head. The strange thing is that this life is far from perfect, it's more life something you'd watch in a movie. For example, I would be neglected as a baby, but adopted when I was 3. Then I would be in a car accident later on and end up being a coma and getting brain damage, but I over-come it and eventually become a neurologist myself.</p>
<p>My daydreams are incredibly precise. Sometimes I even research to make sure that my fantasy life is accurate. I am so obsessed, I actually really wish I was in my fantasy life even though my real life is pretty fine, just a bit boring. The more I daydream, the more it's real. Oh and as you can probably tell, I'm pretty obsessed about the brain.</p>
<p>I would love to hear if you too daydream in a similar way. Do you also research to make sure your daydream would work? Do you daydream of traumatic events so that you can have a happy ending?</p> MDD in such a bady way ?!!tag:wildminds.ning.com,2013-06-12:4661400:Topic:1437732013-06-12T15:01:37.137Zmohamed bahaa eldin hussienhttps://wildminds.ning.com/profile/mohamedbahaaeldinhussien
<p>I am 20 years old and in my second year in university and I have been suffering from daydreaming since I was 6 or 7 years old but I didn't realize that I am in a big problem until I get in the university.My problem is that Daydreaming become a very important part of my life and something I can not get rid of even if I want it is something affects me in a very big way i prevents me from focusing on something and every time I try to focus on something I start daydreaming and can't even think…</p>
<p>I am 20 years old and in my second year in university and I have been suffering from daydreaming since I was 6 or 7 years old but I didn't realize that I am in a big problem until I get in the university.My problem is that Daydreaming become a very important part of my life and something I can not get rid of even if I want it is something affects me in a very big way i prevents me from focusing on something and every time I try to focus on something I start daydreaming and can't even think or study and when I stop daydreaming for example for one day and tell myself to stop I feel that I can't breath and I have a headache and I feel then that I shouldn't try again because there is no way to stop that MDD plz any one that can help me plz tell me how can I stop that thing ?</p> Negative Daydreamingtag:wildminds.ning.com,2013-02-25:4661400:Topic:1278512013-02-25T19:21:52.454ZMiriamhttps://wildminds.ning.com/profile/Miriam
<p>I did some research and figured out that I have maladaptive daydreaming. I daydream all the time. All my daydreams are negative and horrid. Most of my daydreaming is about me getting kidnapped at 5 or 6 years old. I am bought and sold. I get tortured, beaten and whipped. Then when I get to 8 or 9 years people rape me over and over again while still torturing me. I do no know why I have these daydreams, when I finally come out I feel a little sad. I was never kidnapped or raped. I do not…</p>
<p>I did some research and figured out that I have maladaptive daydreaming. I daydream all the time. All my daydreams are negative and horrid. Most of my daydreaming is about me getting kidnapped at 5 or 6 years old. I am bought and sold. I get tortured, beaten and whipped. Then when I get to 8 or 9 years people rape me over and over again while still torturing me. I do no know why I have these daydreams, when I finally come out I feel a little sad. I was never kidnapped or raped. I do not watch anything like this on TV or read in books. The only thing is remembering being yelled at a lot as a child by my father.</p> Really Bad Daydreamstag:wildminds.ning.com,2012-09-13:4661400:Topic:1013192012-09-13T04:32:32.602ZTaylorhttps://wildminds.ning.com/profile/TaylorRush
So when I daydream nothing bad ever happens to me. I am always the " bad guy" doing bad things to other people. Often it is random people I don't even know. It is weird but, I find I can only daydream at certain times, like when I am mad. Does anyone else do this?
So when I daydream nothing bad ever happens to me. I am always the " bad guy" doing bad things to other people. Often it is random people I don't even know. It is weird but, I find I can only daydream at certain times, like when I am mad. Does anyone else do this? My negative daydreamtag:wildminds.ning.com,2012-08-12:4661400:Topic:978882012-08-12T08:11:26.960ZWindy City Day Dreamerhttps://wildminds.ning.com/profile/WindyCityDayDreamer
<p>I daydream sometimes that my father died in the 911 attacks and that my brother went off to war in Iraq and died. I am the main character who has survived this and knows how to truly live life. Essentially I daydream about being someone who truly lives life to fullest while I in real life do not live my life to the fullest but daydream my life away.</p>
<p>I daydream sometimes that my father died in the 911 attacks and that my brother went off to war in Iraq and died. I am the main character who has survived this and knows how to truly live life. Essentially I daydream about being someone who truly lives life to fullest while I in real life do not live my life to the fullest but daydream my life away.</p> Negative daydreams- an emotional drug?tag:wildminds.ning.com,2012-05-30:4661400:Topic:907922012-05-30T13:06:40.321Zgreyartisthttps://wildminds.ning.com/profile/CarolMotsinger
<p>Looking at why we daydream negative or tramtic events. I have noticed in lots of posts in the main forum that many of us seem to have little real emotions or feelings. Cold, empty, are some of the comments I've seen. I too have very little feelings or emotional response in real life. I think the drama we create in our daydreams is feeding the need for emotions we lack. A tramatic event in my dayrdeam will make me cry, for real. It is the only time I cry. Same thing with love and joy, no…</p>
<p>Looking at why we daydream negative or tramtic events. I have noticed in lots of posts in the main forum that many of us seem to have little real emotions or feelings. Cold, empty, are some of the comments I've seen. I too have very little feelings or emotional response in real life. I think the drama we create in our daydreams is feeding the need for emotions we lack. A tramatic event in my dayrdeam will make me cry, for real. It is the only time I cry. Same thing with love and joy, no matter how bad my DD gets I always bring it to a happy ending. The feelings I get through the DD are a high, that I can't get in real life. Does anyone else feel this way?</p>