Where wild minds come to rest
You know those people that enjoy being single? Whom preach all day of the freedom and independence it provides?
Yea, I'm not that person.
In fact, I yearn for the love and affection of a relationship.
I'm the person whom gets stares in the hallways, whom everyone calls "gorgeous" or "intelligent" etc., yet doesn't have a boyfriend or get asked out... and that's when the daydreams kick in.
Every crush feels like a relationship to me, thus every time that said crush has a boyfriend or girlfriend (I'm bi-curious) It feels as if I've just been cheated on, on the same day of my two year anniversary.
Allow me to break this down:
There was this one girl whom I've never seem before. She was absolutely stunning, and was in fact the only girl I've ever been attracted to. So what did I do? I daydreamed of course.
We kissed, we cuddled, we held hands, I sported a jersey with the number two on it as I roared her name at each and every one of her basketball games; She caressed my face as she repeated that I was beautiful, that even my most major insecurities were , in her mind, flawless.
My heart swelled every time I saw her at school. Each day I hoped and prayed that I would see her.
I'd felt as if I loved her.
And come to find out...she had a girlfriend. Affectionate posts of them littered her Snapchat story and Instagram.
My heart shattered.
And the worst thing about it, was that my crush's girlfriend, was on this year's homecoming court.