Where wild minds come to rest
Same here, when I'm making a story it is as if I'm watching a movie because it is so deataled from the characters I should use to the music I should use
Empress Sam said:
Other than being a by the book introvert I post stories online. They earn good reviews but I made use out of mine. Its ironic because im able to manipulate them i can create the most spontaneous events and live out my desires however I always wanted to share them- so i made fanfiction my platform
I have been writing fan fiction since my early twenties and I find it really helps, I no longer day dream about myself at all, I used to when I was younger, but I always day dreamed about actors and shows I liked too. I began to feel weird about my day dreaming in my late teens, especially anything to do with myself as you are never going to be how you day dream yourself to be the most successful etc, so I knew that I couldn't stop day dreaming, as I actively tried, and I would manage it for a day or two, but I would miss it so much, and it became a vicious circle with my trying to stop, and hating it, but hating myself if I failed so I knew I couldn't go on that way, but I knew day dreaming about myself would only lead to depression, and bad things down the line. So I actually changed how I day dreamed, and just made it about actors and actresses/ tv or movie characters I liked together in shows, so now I always day dream about the celebrities I like and make up stories surrounding them, and write my stories, and I have people that read and enjoy them, so I find this a lot easier for me, it gives me something to focus my day dreams on, and makes me feel like I am actually doing something with my day dreaming ie it has a purpose. I am in my late thirties now, and have begun to feel weird about my day dreaming again recently, hence me finding this place, I have tried to stop again, but I miss it too much, and I don't feel myself without it, I can stop for a few days but that is if I don't listen to music at all and avoid all triggers, but I just don't feel like myself without it.
At the moment, I am just trying to find a balance, I have a full time job which I am actually really good at, I would occasionally day dream at work, but my job needs a lot of concentration, so I don't get a chance really, and I have made a deal with myself not to day dream at work. I have told my mother about this, I don't think she understood it , she was like everyone day dreams, but she was supportive and she actually finds my body rocking when listening to music to be weirder than the day dreams strangely enough. I used to occasionally day dream when I was with other people as well, thinking about plot points for my stories, as it became norm for me I didn't know about MDD, but I have stopped that now too.
But I am at the point of wanting more control over it than wanting to stop completely
I did need to cut down a little but I personally don't want to stop day dreaming completely as I do enjoy it a lot, and especially being a writer, if I don't day dream writing is so difficult without the day dreams and I don't like what I write. Maybe in the future I will try and stop completely once people are no longer interested in my stories, but I enjoy writing and use my day dreaming as a tool for them