Maladaptive Daydreaming: where wild minds come to rest
So, hey guys
I've been lurking in this forum for a long time now and thought I would finally share some thoughts and introduce myself.
Guess I've always been daydreaming and nobody ever thought it would be wrong. My parents watched me doing it, my roommates saw it. I got comments like "you're the only person in the world who's doing this". You know this show "my strange addiction" and there was this guy living with a doll as his girlfriend and I thought he was kinda similar to me (without the doll of course) so I googled "addiction to daydreaming" and found you guys. Since this seems to be "a thing" for so many people here's my story:
To really dream I need to look at pictures I don't do rocking or something like that. My computer consists of a huge collection of pictures of celebrities that I've collected over years and years that I would just flip through the whole day. There's always one celebrity I would dream about at a time for months and then I would drop that person and not care at all anymore. So basically I sit in front of my screen, staring at some strangers face all day and dream about that person.
Not so long ago I quit my job because I was really unhappy and would daydream at work while browsing through my picture folders. I could do it because I was sitting with my back to the wall and nobody could watch me. Daydreaming really got into my way and I started hating the job that I chose that life that I was starting to built and I just had to leave and think about everything. I also broke up a relationship because it wasn't compatible with my daydream characters. I felt like I would love the strangers in my dreams more than my realife partner and I really did. It was bad. It was really bad.
So it has been about six months. I tried not to daydream it didn't work. Now I think it's part of my life and I need it to work properly. Without it I would get very lonely even though I think I could use this kind of creativity for my job or for art but there's no way for me to put these thoughts on canvas. It's all in my head.
I like my characters. Please don't go away.
Thank you all for your existence and that we don't have to be alone.
I am very similar to you. I also like to stare at photos of certain people to fully experience my daydreams. Daydreaming has taken over a huge part of my life and like you I would be very lonely without it.
I feel the same way as you. I see myself as a creative person but I just can't seem to get it out by writing or art the way that I want it to.
All I can really say is that you are not alone. We are all here to support each other.