My whole life I have been a very quiet person who just blends in with the crowd and accompanies others while they interact with each other. Almost like accompanying people at a table while they play a game of cards but refusing to participate and only stare off into space or accompanying others at a swimming pool and only standing by the pool side while they interact in the swimming pool and have fun. This creates a feeling of being on the outside looking in and feeling left out and lonely watching others express themselves. I pace alot. The pacing intensifies to music and movies and sometimes even into a gallop. Especially when I have a feeling of complete privacy. Over the years I have adapted to this as being considered normal. People have brought to my attention over the years about my disposition and personality being a little off. And also my listening skills. I thought it was separate problems. I finally seeked help and thought maybe it was ADD and social anxiety. My therapist never heard of maladaptive daydreaming before in all his years of study. I described the pacing and when I actually dig deep notice the emotion is not an emotion of stress, anxiety, panic attack, or nervousness when people think of pacing. It is a feeling of pleasure of self-expression. I feel like when I'm around society and groups of people I am Clark Kent who disguises himself who he really is and keep secrets and I temporarily excuse myself into other room to burst into Superman. I'm compelled to disguising myself and being secretive about my feelings. Can anyone relate to this feeling? And does anybody have any techniques they use to overcome MD?