Maladaptive Daydreaming: where wild minds come to rest
My daydreams are usually quite sad. Lots of awful stuff happen in them for some reason, and I find myself crying a lot of the time.. Somehow all of my main characters just HAVE to have something bad happen to them, and if they ever recover, that just means that something bad will happen to them all over again.
Don't get me wrong, I still like daydreaming, and I can control the daydreams mostly, and could stop those things from happening, I think. I just never try. There's something oddly comforting with daydreaming about sad things.
So I was wondering: Are your daydreams sad? Or are they happy? Or just a mix of both? Are your daydreams an ideal world where everything is great, or are they a mix of horrible and great, like they are for me?
PS.: For example, lots of my characters get abused, tortured, raped, see someone they love die, unintentionally kill someone they love, are forced to kill/torture someone they love, etc.
PPS.: I've never been abused or anything so it's not that I've experienced anything of that.
My daydreams are also full of many emotions. There is a lot of sadness, pain, anger, but there are also happy times. My character always has trauma or some sad history, but still in my ideal world. It really is a mix.
Sometimes its happy, sometimes its sad.
There are some days when I focus on the good stuff about the family my daydream is about, like them playing with their kids, going places, being romantic with eachother and just getting on with life. Some days I focus on the bad stuff that happened in the past, which involves some of the character's pasts with being raised in a cult by abusive, completely crazy parents. One time I actually scared myself, as in my storyline, a character's abusive father showed up at his house demanding to see his newest grandchild, and he was just so scared.
Varies a lot. There's a lot of good times to counteract my depression though my alternate self also shares my mental illnesses, but drama has always been a huge part of them as there's pretty much none of it in my real life that it gets boring. So often someone cheats on someone, we get into arguments and have falling outs, people die or move away.
Luis S said:
i imagine myself talking to somebody in the future about how i used to feel in the past and how i was able to get pass my problem.
My DD are full of emotions and drama. That's often bad stuff, or really intense, like you said, rapes, wars, fights, having to flee. A general theme seems to be that my characters are stuck in a bad situation and have to grind through it and bear the hardships.