Where wild minds come to rest
So, I don't know about anyone else, but I've been on almost every antipsychotic there is, as well as several other types of medications including antidepressants. Nothing makes it harder to go to "my world" than antipsychotics and antidepressants. It's like it shuts down that part of my brain, the ability to imagine. I think to myself, "This can't be healthy." Even though I'm able to take part in the world around me more because of this, I find that I can only tolerate this side effect for a short period of time before I give up on the medication.
If you're wondering, I am also diagnosed with schizophrenia. My MD is not part of it, though, because I can control it and I know it's...not real. I hesitate to say it's not real because much of the time I think it's more real to me than the "real" world.
Has anyone else been in a situation with medication taking away your MD? How did you feel about it?
I know what it is now, and that it could become a recognized disorder, but that doesn't stop me from wanting to keep it. It's mine and it's what makes me special.
Yolandi Wells said:
"Ever since I developed schizoaffective disorder I've found that its hard to dd. I can't create new worlds, characters or dd for long periods of time. For me it hasnt been the medication but the illness itself. I am however to a certain extent greatful for this."It's only been since I've been on medication that it's difficult to MD. I get great joy from being in my world and my people, but since I've had jobs and been to school, I've found that it, along with the schizophrenia, make it very difficult to function in this world. In that sense, I wish I could control it more, but it's like a drug to me.