All Discussions Tagged 'sad' - Wild Minds network2024-03-28T18:22:14Zhttps://wildminds.ning.com/forum/topic/listForTag?tag=sad&feed=yes&xn_auth=noMy daydreams are taking over my life, they make me feel so lonely, I feel like bursting into tears.tag:wildminds.ning.com,2017-12-18:4661400:Topic:2740452017-12-18T20:11:37.008ZOlli Bickhttps://wildminds.ning.com/profile/OlliBick
<p>This is my first time posting any content on here, and I sometimes have trouble trying to explain things, so I hope that this will be easy to understand. </p>
<p>Let me cut to the chase, in my daydreams I have a set of friends, they each have their own profile, and I have come up with every little quirk about them, where they come from, full names, family background, age, birthdays, birthmarks, scars, ambitions - essentially anything and everything a real person could have. In my fantasies…</p>
<p>This is my first time posting any content on here, and I sometimes have trouble trying to explain things, so I hope that this will be easy to understand. </p>
<p>Let me cut to the chase, in my daydreams I have a set of friends, they each have their own profile, and I have come up with every little quirk about them, where they come from, full names, family background, age, birthdays, birthmarks, scars, ambitions - essentially anything and everything a real person could have. In my fantasies we interact, I'm in love with one of them, and besties with another. The fantasies are so powerful, that I find myself acting out scenes/pacing/mouthing or speaking while listening to music, watching a video,or reading a story (3 of my biggest triggers). The stories/music makes my characters come alive, it feels like they are actually in the room with me, like we are actually together.</p>
<p>When I leave my daydreams, I feel empty.</p>
<p>I have to leave them a lot (although its hard), because I have sixth-form (I'm 16), and when I do, I feel like bursting into tears. I have a few friends in real life, and none of them know how deep my daydreams go, they know I have 'imaginary friends', but they have absolutely no idea what it's like. In my fantasies, all of the characters are so detailed, it's like they are real people, so when I have to pop back to reality it feels horrible to realise that they are not real- and they never will be. Sometimes I hold on to hope, hope that maybe they ARE real, hope that I might actually meet them one day, hope that they'll find me - and everyday this hope destroys me, bit-by-bit, until I feel like I may just crumble away into nothingness.</p>
<p>As I type away right now, I am slowly struggling. I've written a lot but what I've written describes merely the tip of a gigantic iceberg, and I am tearing myself apart even trying to explain a little bit of it. I need help, but I don't know what to do. I don't want the daydreams to disappear, they are fun, and it makes my day every time I am able to immerse myself in my world, it's the pang of pain in my chest that I feel afterwards that kills me. </p>