All Discussions Tagged 'Suicide' - Wild Minds network2024-03-29T07:24:34Zhttps://wildminds.ning.com/forum/topic/listForTag?tag=Suicide&feed=yes&xn_auth=noMaladaptive Daydreaming Gone But Now I'm suicidal, How Can I enjoy Life Now?tag:wildminds.ning.com,2019-04-24:4661400:Topic:3387092019-04-24T19:50:08.710ZTinkerbellhttps://wildminds.ning.com/profile/ShareenaClarke
<p>Like many of us I used my MD to live a more full filling life. Even if it was all pretend and in my head. In the real word I tried modelling, It didn't go exactly as I planned as I didn't always get paid but I tried it.</p>
<p>I travelled to various places and recorded music demos but ended up having my work stolen.</p>
<p>I even joined a writing group group where I had my work digitally recorded and presented to the city council but still, after that. Nothing else became of…</p>
<p>Like many of us I used my MD to live a more full filling life. Even if it was all pretend and in my head. In the real word I tried modelling, It didn't go exactly as I planned as I didn't always get paid but I tried it.</p>
<p>I travelled to various places and recorded music demos but ended up having my work stolen.</p>
<p>I even joined a writing group group where I had my work digitally recorded and presented to the city council but still, after that. Nothing else became of that. </p>
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<p>In all of my MD I was successful at something, happy. I didn't feel like a failure. But I knew that living life having MD is not living at all. So I got rid of it and along with getting rid of it I realized all of my failures. Getting rid of MD I realised that all of my friends were fake. They used me financially, or to become Socially acquainted with others. Until a time when they no longer needed me. Now I realise how many people I have surrounded myself with who have used me some way or another, and i realise all of my many failures. Now I think feel like my life is pointless, like I have nothing left to offer. What is the point in living such a meaningless life? At least with MD I pretended I was worth something. </p>