THE LIFE OF A DAYDREAMER

[honey successfull]

i know of a girl,a little girl,she was so amazing she could create vivid pictures of people places and event on her head effortlessly she had no friends because she didn't need them,  she could summon a world of friends if she so desires she had everything she wanted  the best clothes, the best shoes, the best family, and above all everyone loved her.she  could create worlds and existence and make fantasies  so real. she continued exploring her powers and would spend long hours creating and  and recreating fantasies, in class she felt isolated and alone and she turns to her daydreams for comfort,comfort was not the only thing they gave her, they gave her energy they  filled  her with love and affection and whenever, someone would hurt or insult her she would turn to her daydream world and retaliate.it was her little world and no one knew about it, no one had to, it was beutifull  it was enjoyable, she was loved , she was adored .she managed to combine her studies with her day dream it was always a source of distration and all of a sudden  then it was no longer a source of distration it was a source of concern and gradually it became  unstoppable, untameble, she daydreamed endlessly often times without sleeping, she felt pains in her chest she had headaches and above all there was a terrible feeling of lonliness. and so she found out and when she did she was shocked ,in reality she had nothing,nothing at all, no friends no fancy clothes, no boyfriend,  and no education.the pain was unbearable the lonliness was excruciating it was no longer a daydream it was a nightmare .one day  ,she decided she has had enough and went to see a therepist but they said  its normal and daydreaming meant that she is creative, no one understood her.she wished she has cancer or HIV or asthma at least that way someone would sympathize with  her.several times she contemplated  sucide.after seaching friutlesly for some form of understanding about what was  happening to her, she found out it has name. it is , called maladaptive daydreaming,the pain and anguish she feels has not declined sometimes, she gets hooked for days like an alchoholic with an insatiable desire for alchohol, i know you  all understand  what she is going through,you  all understand her,you can all feel her pain,you  have walked in her shoes you  know what it feels like, the feelings of being trapped, the feeling of hoplessness,the pain, and the sleepless nights,the bleak mornings, the chest pain,the lack of concentration,the feeling of hopelessness you all understand her because you were once like her, some of you  are still like her ....................................................................................................... i wish i could understand her ,but that is impossible,because i am her, i am that little girl that is still struggling with maladaptive daydreaming into adulthood ...............................................................................................................................................................................pls i need your comments and contributions how many of you understand her, how many of you recognize her, how many of you have felt  her,how many of you have gone through what she went through.

[MatthewR]

YES. This is my story as well. I feel exactly as you do, but i think I was blind to the true reasons for my excessive daydreaming. You know what it feels like. It basically isolates us, and instead of helping us cope, it creates a bigger hole that we fall into until we can no longer escape from it. It's so compulsive, and then we do nothing else but live in our heads, like insane people. I always avoided the true reasons for all my fantasies, that i was disappointed with myself, that i felt incapable or not good enough. I don't like these feelings. I would rather disappear than deal with them, but I know things will only get worse if i did that. I hope you can defeat MD and find a way out from this miserable existence. I told my doctor a long time ago, and he didn't believe me. Like your therapist says, everyone does it, it's normal, but I don't think they understand how much it interferes with life. So, yeah, all of us here are working on it. Nice to meet you, Honey! 

[Dreamcatcher]

Hi there. This basically summed up my life and situation regarding MDD really well- why I did it, how I felt about it then vs now..... I can relate to that little girl too well. I wish I could back take all that time I was daydreaming endlessly and build something beautiful with my reality instead. Instead of giving me the joy and security it gave me in the past, daydreaming is ruining me now and like you said - it's an addiction that is so hard to control. The hopelessness persists, but I'm taking baby steps to make changes in my life and to overcome it.
                        
You are not alone, my friend.

There is some great material amongst the blogs and discussions in this forum. I hope you find something that can help to ease your pain. I'm taking the same journey as well.

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